"Sometimes, if you stand on the bottom rail of a bridge and lean over to watch the river slipping slowly away beneath you, you will suddenly know everything there is to be known." - A.A. Milne

Seth and I get up and get ready to face the world that is now, different.

I have to get a job. I have to do things I never thought I would be doing at this age. At this age, I would be living up my life and doing the things I always wanted to so. Then one thing hit me, I still haven't told Ava. She was my best friend! How could it have slipped my mind to tell her?

So I went on my way and went to place after place looking for a job. I called Ava and asked if I could come over. "Sure! Is everything fine?" she asked with worry in her voice. "I'll talk to you soon ok?" I asked. I didn't want to do this over the phone; I'm more of a face to face person. "Ok, fine I'll see you soon," she said and I hung up.

I knocked on Ava's door and she answered. "Presley! I haven't seen you in forever! How have you been?" she said as she hugged me. "I'm fine. But I need to breath!" I said. "Oh, yeah right. Sorry. So what's up?" she asked as we walked into her house and sat down on the couch.

"I went job hunting all day," I wanted start off easy. "Why? Don't you have to take care of the twins?" Ava asked. "Um, not anymore," I said, looking down, we were getting closer and closer to the thing I wanted to avoid the most, telling her the truth.

"Why not?" she asked, she was getting worried. I looked at the floor some more, I can't look her in the eyes. "Because my mom kicked me out and Seth's parents said we both had to get jobs," I said, holding back my tears.

Ava moved closer to me, "Oh my God! Why would your mom do something like that? But at least Seth's parents are letting you stay with them. You know that you could have come here if they didn't let you stay right?"

I breathed in and out, just breathe Presley, breath. "I wouldn't burden you like that," I said. "Presley, you are not a burden! You're my best friend! How could you ever think that?" she asked. "Because, the reason my mom kicked me out was because…" I was drying my eyes, trying my hardest not to let Ava see.

"Because what Pres?" Ava said as she rubbed my back. "Because I'm pregnant," I choked out. I couldn't stop my tears now, they wouldn't stay back.

Ava moved away, "Oh my God. Oh my God," her face was pale, her eyes were wide.

I got up, " I should go." "No, wait. Presley, I am going to be the best Aunty Ava ever! Ok, this kid is gonna be so loved and spoiled and, I'm so throwing you a baby shower. You could always come here if things don't work out, ok? I'm here for you. Besties 'til the end," she said as she hugged me. "Thank you," I whispered.

On my way back to Seth's house I got a call from one of the places that I applied at letting me know I got the job. I was now a cashier at Target.

I walked in the door and was so glad that Seth's was the first face I saw. "Hey Presley. Any luck today?" he asked as he motioned me to sit next to him. "Yeah, I now work at Target." "Awesome! Discounts!" he said as he tickled me when I sat down. I laughed, the bastard knew I was ticklish. "You're gonna die for that Ross!" I said. He got up quickly, "Catch me if you can!" he said as he ran.

"Not fair! I'm pregnant!" I called. It was nice how we were still able to act like nothing was wrong, like we were just children ourselves. Seth came back into the room. "Did you tell anyone else?" he asked with sincerity in his eyes. "I told Ava," I said. He looked at me, "I should probably tell Marco before she does then. It won't be as hard as telling our parents though," he said.

"I know what you mean. I'm going up to talk to the school before school starts to see what kind of plans they have for teen mothers. I'm going to be missing a lot. I don't know if they'll let me miss as much as I'm going to need. That and I have a job. If I were going into senior year it wouldn't be that much of a problem since they would let me go half a day and to work the rest, but I'm not so I can't and I don't know what I'm going to do or how we'll make it. And it scares me because I want to give our child everything he or she needs and wants and we might not be able to do that. I just don't know about anything anymore," I said as I put my hands to my face.

Really? I ruined everything. We were just having fun and messing around and I had to ruin everything. I had to ruin his life. I did so many things wrong and I don't understand why Seth is with me or why he's stuck around. I'm so negative and I'm not even pretty.

He took me in his arms, "Hey, it's ok. It's all going to be ok. Some day it will all be ok. But for right now, look at everything we have. We have a home, we have my parents, and we have so many other things that other people in our situation would kill to have. Just look on the bright side ok? Just don't ever give up hope ok?" he said. "Yeah, ok." He was right. I always looked on the negative side of things, it was just who I am. I always expect for people to leave me or for things to go terribly wrong, but they never do. Seth was right, I need to look on the bright side of things not just for me, but for the baby too.

This baby was going to have to be patient with me. This baby would be my whole world and my reason for living some day, but for right now, at this moment, I want to go to Seth's bed and pretend that I'm a regular teenager and that Seth and I are just hanging out like we used to. I need to pretend that another life isn't counting on me. That if I fail at anything it would only affect me and not another person who is yet to be born. I want to pretend this is all just a dream. That one day I will wake up from it.

But I know it's not. I know better. So I look at Seth and ask him how his day was and if he had any luck in finding a job.

He chuckled at my sudden mood change and said, "Yeah I found a job. I work at AutoZone. So if your car ever breaks down or something I can get that fixed." Good old Seth. He always said he wanted to work with cars, but I don't think that's what he meant. And I don't think he wanted to find work at this time. But he's put up a strong front and I need to do the same thing. I will look at the bright side. After all, it's the only thing that could give me hope other than Seth, Ava, and the baby.

Yeah, I know it was short and it sucked, and I swear I'm alive and I'll update as soon as I can but my internet is going crazy on me so sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. That and as me and my friends say, I will soon be selling my soul, my time, and my summer, to marching band. Sorry guys.