i swear i didn't do it on purpose.

(lie.)

i am sorry.
i am so, so sorry,

(lie)

but it was so tempting.
i finally gave in to the temptation,
and it just felt so good,
but you stopped me,
and i hate you for that.

(lie)

the pills dropped to the floor,
you started sobbing,
and i blinked once, twice,
with silent tears streaming down my face.

i am a statue,
motionless,
and yet so, so frozen.

i cannot do it.
but i wantneed it.
to be free,
and finally at peace.

i stand back with an emotionless mask in place,
slipping back into an old familiar lie,

and i flee.

i am so sorry.

(lie.)