What I Hate Most In This World

I need to change

Change how I act

Change how I look

Change myself

Because I can't stay

Someone I hate

I shudder every time I look in a mirror

Because I am what I hate most in this world

But I want things to be different

I want to become better

I don't want to be sad forever

I need to get over the fear holding me back

And actually live my life

I need this

But it's so hard

Trying to become someone new

Trying to fix yourself

Because everything is wrong

And nothing is right

I am the thing I hate most in this world

How do I change that?

How can I ever become some I could like?

I'm in to far

I'm in to deep

To deep in the depression

That has taken control of my life

I am the thing I hate most in this world

But someday, I hope, I can change that

I hope I can be someone I like

I hope one day I can look in the mirror and not be disgusted

But mostly I hope I have the strength to make it happen

A poem about depression and trying to fix yourself. Hope someone likes it.