This is not something that I made up… It has happened to me. It hurts. This is what I wish I could say to my betrayer…

Hello

Betrayer

You know who you are

And you know who this is

I'm speaking to you, just to let you know

If you haven't gotten that much

Through your thick, narcissistic head.

I'm here to have a little chat

About what you said to me and did to me

How you hurt me so much

With nearly no words at all

Other than a honey coated lie

I took it greedily, believing you, because I trusted you

I didn't know that you held the bloodstained knife

Behind you back all the while.

Betrayal

I bet you haven't felt it

But you are the doer

If you have, think about it

The rolling pit of despair deep in your gut

Aching, praying for an answer

The answer that tells you what you did wrong

Why they left you, threw you to the wolves

The truth it was them

The betrayer

You, yes, you.

Please, don't try and deny it

You had it planned forever.

I could see it in your eyes

I tried too hard, still trying, to pick it back up

Stand us back on our feet

Yes, us.

The two sisters, the ones supposed to stick together

The ones who have secrets about each other

So deep that if they saw the light of day

It may be the end of us both

I trusted you with my life

My secrets, my feelings

I let you into my life like a long lost sister

To me, you were one

A closer bond than blood, one of trust

One that you snapped with shears of black metal

That bond was connected to my heart

And when severed, it left me bleeding

Pouring out tears of blood red

Silver, crystals cascading down my face

Night after night I sat in bed, crying

Hoping that you would come back

Heal the wounds you left me with

Stop the stinging, aching, throbbing pain

But you never did

You remained away, just out of reach

I had to realize, despite my efforts

It needs two connected to make a friendship work

I was one half

We needed a whole, and you just didn't want it

You kept being right out of my grasp

Almost as if you wanted to taunt me

Add horrendous insult to the injuries you gave me

And kick me while I was down

I'm still down

On my knees, struggling to get up after you

Watching as you walk away with them

After a subtle spit by my face

Leaving me, refusing to numb the pain that you left me

I remember everything

I can't forget what you did to me

Killed part of my heart

The part of me that was you

Or I thought was

I did what I thought was truly right

Let you into my heart, my life

You became a light when my world was dark

Kept me afloat when I was drowning

When I was dying, wanting to end it

You were there for me

Now that you're gone, it's a lonely road I walk

But what would you know?

You're the one who left me without any regret

Remorse for what you did

The pain that you caused

You can stop the rain that comes down on me

But that won't change a thing

Because you're still gone, and I still hurt

I remember everything you did to me

And I'm sorry

If it is me

That I wasn't good enough for you

It all went by, faster than lightning

However many years that you were my sister

And I thought we had many more left together

But you can't change the past

And you left me

If you do come back to me

I can't forget the past

I can't forget what you did to me, betrayed me

It still hurts me, and will for I don't know how long

There are so many things I can do

Hate you

Create a plan for revenge

Let loose your secrets

And watch you suffer in your own world of hate

But, I wouldn't do that

Even though you are gone, a ghost that I wish was still by me

I wouldn't betray you

I wouldn't do that to a sister

I wouldn't do that to my best friend

Or who I thought was

I guess I couldn't be what you wanted me to

Or I didn't live up to your expectations

I took you for who you were

And loved it, embraced it

Even the faults I saw, I shone a light on them

I made a home for you in my heart

A vacant, shadowy spot now

I still cry

But I can admit it

Because, you need to know, my friend

So that you may never do this to another

I would never, ever want another to go through the pain

The things that you put me through

Everyone that trusted you

Those you left me for, I hope you love them

And that they treat you as well as I did

Because betrayal hurts

No one should ever have to go what you put me through

Pulling me back, from the brink

Saving me from drowning

Just to throw me back in when I blinked

My friend, my sister

How could you do such a thing to me?

I thought we were flesh and blood

I thought we were each other's half!

Long lost twins from across the globe

Blessed by fate to meet!

But I guessed wrong

Betrayer

Please, remember what I say

And never harm another.