I look back at all the good times we had and wonder why you let that all go away. Was your smile a lie? Did you force the laughter that escaped from your lips? Did you fake that sparkle in your eyes that I loved so much? Were you that good of an actor that you still fool me to this day? All I have is memories now. Though you may have been a lie I was real. The smile on my face, the laughter in my mouth, the sparkle in my eye. It was all real. It still is. You may have been a lie but was a sweet sweet lie. I loved being your friend and would love to be your friend again. But you are lost to me. I lost you all those years ago and I still have yet to find you behind that mask you wear every day. I see you but do not recognize you. I know your name but it doesn't bring the smile to my face like it used too. All it brings back are the memories of another person with the same name and face. But that person is not the same I see today. The one who stands in front of me now is the lie. You were real back than when I had you. But then you were caught in those clutches and I lost you. If you knew me today you would be real. I want the real you back and not have to doubt the memories that are the only things I have left of you.