I want you to close your eyes

And breathe past your lips

And for a moment

Forget the

Reality

That suffocates you on a

Daily, rotten basis

You can think what you please

You can not be

Judged

Not here

What's the dream?

What's the fantasy?

What is it this time?

You want peace and

Safety

And

Calm

Maybe from others

But most from just

Yourself

How can you trust the skin

You're in

When it burdens you to

Even

Look yourself in the eyes

Every morning

You never wanted to wake up for

Anyway

Because every single damn time

You open your eyes

You can only ever think

Not again

Please

Not this again

But you do it anyway

Because you hate the

Torture

But love the

Pain

Because the pain

Makes it real

And what's real

Is when you open your eyes again

Only when

I tell you to

And I can tell you

Yell at you

Demand for you to

Face the facts

And face the reality

That you've spent

So much time

Trying to

Avoid

And trying to

Get rid of

While failing

And failing

And failing

Over and over again

And only ever becoming worse

Each time around

So maybe this time

I'll tell you

Yell at you

Demand for you

To keep those eyes

Shut

And those lips

Closed

And your reality

Gone