|When You Were Mine
Author: ordinarygirlx0 PM
"No one ever forgets their first love. No one can forget that strange feeling you have towards someone for the first time. How I wish I could go back to those happy days we spent together. I still remember how we first met and how we fell in love...but that's all in the past now."Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Romance/Tragedy - Chapters: 25 - Words: 26,560 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 05-03-13 - Published: 07-13-12 - id: 3041676
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Chapter 11: Things Can't Get Any Worse
Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse. I guess God just enjoys watching me suffer. No matter how hard I try to start over something always manages to get in the way. I'm tired of everyone getting in my way. I'm tired of things only getting worse and having to figure out a way around them. I don't know how much longer I can take it anymore. Why was I brought into this world only to suffer?
The skies were as dull and grey as they were everyday. I woke up to the plain and boring bedroom I stayed in everyday. There was nothing on the walls, or even the ground, just the few pieces of furniture. I used to wake up every morning to a room filled with all kinds of colors and paintings. Then my world fell apart and everything else seemed like it didn't matter anymore. My art was the only way I was able to express myself. It was a way of showing how I really felt each and everyday, but now...I feel nothing. That's why nothing will ever fill this room.
I got dressed that morning and dragged myself to school. Lilly and I haven't really spoken much since that little incident before but she would always wait for me every morning to walk to school together. If I didn't go she'd end up waiting for too long and leaving really late. So I didn't really didnt have much of a choice. So every morning I found myself dragging myself out of bed and heading to school.
Liam and I haven't really spoken much lately either. I figured it was what was best for the both of us. Lilly and him also seemed to have gotten pretty close so I was glad that I didn't have to worry too much. Liam seemed like a good guy and I knew that he would take good care of her. Lilly also seemed to be enjoying herself with her new friends and new lifestyle. Things seemed like they were finally going to be okay...then they showed up.
It felt like every other day. I dragged myself out of bed got dressed and headed to school with Lilly. We kept our distance and continued on with our daily routines. Then we reached third period and then everything took a turn for the worse. The second I stepped into class I sat myself down and tried to get some sleep. A few minutes later the entire class started whispering to one another and everyone started getting really loud. I couldn't really go back to sleep so I sat up and tried figuring out why everyone was being so noisy. Then I saw them standing there.
Two beautiful girls stood smiling in the front of the classroom. The first girl ally tall and skinny. She had her long staright dark brown hair tied in ponytail. She also had pale blue eyes and olive colored skin. The second girl was a bit shorter than the first girl. She was a lot slimer than the other girl as well. Her light brown hair was short and wavy. Her skin was a bit lighter then he other as well. I froze in fear when her emerald green eyes spotted me.
The teacher came in and introduced them to the class and when I saw them wearing the school uniforms I was both surprised and angry. I sunk myself into my seat when they waved at me from across the room. People turned over to stare at me and the whispering only grew louder. I tried to ignore them but then they started calling out my name. I could feel myself sink deeper and deeper into my seat as they kept on calling out for me.
"Violet!" They kept reapting, making me even angrier everytime they said it.
"Miss , do you know these girls?" My teacher asked, while everyone else turned there heads to me and waited for an answer.
"...no" I shook my head before grabbing my things and getting out of my seat. I could feel them staring at me as I stood up and headed for the door. It's not like it was my fault. I guess I just hoped they would have figured out I didn't want anything to do with them when I left. That's what I get for wishing.
"Violet..." The sound of lilly's voice made me sto for a moment. I could tell she was angry and disapointed by the way she alled my name, I'm sure mom would be too, but I didn't have a choice. I had to leave them all behind in order to move on.
"You're all so annoying!" I ran towards the exit and headed down the hallway. I could hear my name being called but I just kept running until I couldn't hear them anymore.
I passed by the door the rooftop and thought about hiding up there. Then I realized that Liam might head up there later and I was in no mood to see him. I kept on walking and tried to figure out where I should go. The next thing I knew I was already by the front of the school. The skies were grey, the streets were practically empty, so I guess I could just go anywhere. What else could go wrong.
"Violet!" I immidientally turned around to the group of people calling my name. Behind me stood Lilly, Liam, and the two girls from before. I guess God really did enjoy watching me suffer. He probably wants to see how this will all play out.
"What are you idiots doing here?" I threw my bag to the ground and walked over to them. They stood there for a moment trying to catch there breath. I guess they must have been chasing after me for a while.
"Why...why would do something like that? Emily and Briana have been your friends for years...so why would you do something like that!?" Lily looked extremely angry as she stood there yelling. She just didn't get it and I don't think she ever would. I don't care if I look like the bad guy. I just want to start over.
"They were my friends, but people drift apart. I would have thought they'd figure that out when I left. It's not my fault there idiots!" Lilly opened her mouth to say something but emily put her hand up to stop her. She folded her arms on her chest and took a few step towards me. She stared at me for a long moment almost as if she was trying to find something. Her emerald green eyes examined me before she turned away and laughed.
"Who do you think I am? You think you can try and push us away like that? I've known you for years Vi and I know that you're just trying to push us away so that you can handle everything on your own...but were not going to let you do that!"
"You don't know anything about me!" I shouted, making my way towards her.
"I know that you're only doing this to punish your self. You're blaming yourself for what happened, and you think staying with that psychotic uncle of your's is going to make things better, but all it'll do is get you killed! And I am not going to let something like that happen again!"
"You don't what you're saying! Besides, who told you where I was staying anyway?" She turned her head away from me and kept quiet. I knew she wasn't going to say anything but it only pissed me off even more.
"I did..." we all turned our heads to see Lilly standing there looking guilty. She stared down at her shoes before looking over at me.
"Why would you do that?"
"They wanted to help and I had to tell somebody..." She mumbled, taking a few steps backwards.
"No, you didn't! Look if you hate it there then go on livinging in your fancy mansion with your fancy rich father!"
"Hey! This isn't her fault she was just trying to look out for you!" Emily shouted, trying to get closer.
"I can look out or myself! I don't need Lilly, Briana, and I most definitley do not need you!" I pushed her away before walking over to grab my bag.
"You need help Vi! I know you've been trying to do everything on your own after your mother died. You'vebeen trying to push us away but your not alone. We're not going anywhere so stop trying to push us away!"
"Look, I'm fine. I don't want your help because I don't need it! Everythings super so just go home!" I grabbed my bag and headed towards the school gates. I don't know how much longer I can stay here.
"Then why are you staying at your uncles? From the bruise on your face...and the scar on your and the scar on your arm...doesn't look like a very safe enviorment if you ask me." I turned my head over to Lilly and let out a small laugh.
"Nothing happened,okay? These were just an accident and Lilly's just a liar."
"No I'm not! Liam was even there he saw it all, right?" I panicked as he turned over to look at me. I had completely forgotten he was here and if he told them the truth then they definitley wouldn't leave me alone. He stared at me for a long moment before he turned over to lilly. He scratched his head and laughed before he said anything.
"Sorry, I don't really remember." Lilly shook her head and turned over to the girls before looking back at him.
"Liam you were there! You guys even talked for a while after that, remember?" He glanced over at me for a second before he shook his head and shrugged.
"I don't remember that happenening. Violet and I aren't really that close, and we barely even talk to each other at school. I don't really know anything about her..." I let out a sigh of relief as he turned away from Lilly. Emily glanced over at me for a minute before turning over to Liam. She had a strange look on her face as she turned over to face him.
"If you don't really know anything about her, and don't really talk to her, why exactly are you here?" He opened his mouth to say something but no words came out. I shook my head and turned away from them. I knew they would have figured it out sooner or later.
"Actually, I just wanted an excuse to leave class. Following you guys was my only way out, that and you guys seemed pretty interesting to watch." He laughed.
I didn't really know why he was helping me out but I was glad he did. His laughter was different then the one I normally heard. It sounded the same but it didn't feel real. It was the same laughter he used when he was with his friends or in a large crowd. It was like he was always hiding behind some mask...and it makes me worryr sometimes. He's always asking about me and trying to make me feel better, but I never once asked anything about him or tried figuring out if there was anything wrong. He was always trying to help me out just like he was doing now.
"Well, there you have it. So you can go back home now." I started walking while trying to ignore whatever came out of there mouths next.
"This is our home." I stopped and turned over to see if she was serious or only saying it to piss me off. By the look on her face it seemed like she wasn't kidding though.
"You can't do that! What's going to happen to the shop?" She said, smiling as if she had already won this battle.
"We can do whatever we want! You think you're the only one who can leave that place behind? Unlike you, though, were not gonna to let all of your mothers hard work be for nothing. So the shop will still be up during the weekends. That way we can keep an eye on you."
"Why are you doing this...?" I asked, standing there trying to figure out what exactly they were planning. They were right I was pushing them away and I'll keep on doing so. So what was the point in staying? Why would they waste there time dealing with me?
"Your mother meant everything to us...and I know she wouldn't want you to keep punishing yourself for something like this. We're doing this because it's what she would have wanted...and because we care about you." I rolled my eyes and headed towards the gate. I didn't want to hear this anymore. The only person I can trust in this world is me and no one else.
"Gee, thanks, but I think I can handle everything on my own." I said, walking a bit faster so that I wouldn't have to listen to them anymore. I could hear them calling my name but I just kept walking. I didn't want them here. I didn't want anyone here. I just wanted to be alone and take whatever punishment I deserved.
I kept walking until I ended up in a small park near my uncles house. I found a small bench near by and sat down to take a break. I stared up at the dark clouds in the sky and the image of my mother appeared in my mind. Would my entire life really be like this? My father died before I was even born, I spent my entire childhood hidden away from the world, my grandmother disappeared without a trace, my mother had passed away last winter, along with the last person left I could go to.
Now, I'm stuck living with my psychotic uncle who must still be alive to punish me. There's nowhere for me to go. There's no one I have left to go to. I'm completely alone. I know the sins I had comitted to deserve this Kind of punishment...but I just wish there was some way to make this pain go away.