Disappointment is a most bitter herb, and I suppose that's my own fault for raising such extremely high hopes, for allowing stories to take the place of reason. Today, today I was myself unfettered and unforced. I don't know if I've been punished for that, but it sure as hell feels like it. Now I'm sounding angsty, this is what he does to me. You remember Justin, from two or three installments ago? That one, I finally got around to telling him I was gay, and I dunno, maybe I've read too many romance novels, but apathy isn't really a heartening response.

That's enough unhappiness for now, onwards dear fellows!

So it turns out that the world isn't so terrible after all. The Mexicans have a new president, or they will soon, I can't remember. Anyways, he looks to be a bit better, a bit newer.

Or maybe they'll end up like the U.S., worn out, jaded.

Or like Britain, a royal facade.

Or even the French, did you know this is their fifth republic so far?

Where is my nirvana, my god?

Where is my closure, my light?

Where is my yin, my better half?

Where is my thirst, my hunger?

It is in the quiet moments, the better times.

It is at the end of the aisle, the thousand stars.

He is sitting across from you, looking away.

It is endless, and will get the better of you again.

You are the only thing that can be proved, unequivocally. Of course, that's the opinion of everyone else on earth, what if you're just a figment of their elaborate fantasy? Remember, you think, therefore you must be.

By the way, Holmes doesn't use deduction, he uses induction, it's an entirely different matter.

Also, sorry, but atheism takes just as much faith as fervent belief. In fact, it's just another fervent religion, but maybe a bit less violent. The agnostics, they're the only ones who don't take any leap of faith, they are the truly reasonable ones.

Lord bless their souls, and make them sure, one way or another.

I need to know, I need to know what he thinks, and I need to know how he feels. I already know how I feel, but this need for knowledge will drive me insane if it is not satisfied.

Then again, the knowledge may do me more harm than good.

You and I were friends from outer space

Afraid to let go

The only ones who understood this place

-Train

And so it goes...