You are afraid,

This I know,

You're hurting so bad,

But you rarely let it show

You only want to die

When you chose the mode,

Suddenly you're loosing all control,

And you're far too young to go.

But you wouldn't promise me

And neither will I.

I won't ever promise you I won't break down

And cry.

I won't promise that I won't bleed,

I can't promise I won't scream

Because it's so wrong I'm the one

Who still breathes.

I won't promise my heart won't seethe,

I won't promise you anything.

Dear sweet child

I hope when you rest

Your dreams will run wild,

Take you to a place beautiful

A place meant only for you,

A place filled with safety and truth.

No more lies, no more disguise,

Just a place with brilliant blue skies.

You say your fading fast now,

But there's one more thing,

You want me to promise I'll be ok,

But you wouldn't promise me

And neither will I

I won't ever promise you I won't

Break down and cry

I won't promise that I won't bleed

I can't promise I won't throw my head

Back and scream.

Because it's so wrong I'm still the one

Who breathes.

I won't promise my heart won't seethe

I won't you anything.

I'm not mean

And you not being fair

You said don't leave

I said I'd always be here.

You've been running away

For so long

I've been reaching for you

Begging you to stay,

Tell me how long

Until a promise fades?

This isn't a game, its real life

Its real struggle and real strife.

So if it makes it easier on you

I'll make a promise to you.

I promise to you…

I'll break down and cry

And I'll think of you in my prayers every night,

I promise to you, that I will scream to prove

That I can still breathe.

I promise to you, my heart will bleed, and my anger

Will seethe,

Most of all I promise to you,

I will miss you with my everything.