being caught

[is what hurts]

but lying

[is what hurts the most]

i dont know if

i can live with myself.

when i say im okay,

im really saying

ive never been worse.

i looked you in the eye today

and i lied,

no, that isnt me,

im fine,

i dunno why they thought

that was me.

and i could tell you knew,

you knew i lied,

but you pretended,

you played my game.

and now im scared,

scared to even breathe wrong,

for fear of being called

on my

lies.