I'm Never Waking Up.

If I didn't wake up I'd never see them again.

Who I don't know but I feel like some bodies waiting for me, willing me to their side.

It's strange, I think I'm falling but it's really like a falling sensation but you know your not falling, your just lying still.

I can't remember when I went to sleep but I remember going to sleep.

Also I can't remember who I am but I know some of what I look like.

But only briefly.

I dont' even thinks it's me.

I see a young girl about 15 years of age with dark brown hair and blue cloudy eyes.

I've only ever seen her face.

I have flashbacks to when I was awake but it's only brief little images of thing I can't make sense of.

One was of a boy.

He was tall with dirty blond long hair and had beautiful brown eyes.

He seemed to know me and I him.

He was sitting looking at me like he was studying my face.

All of a sudden I hear sirens and realise the scene has changed.

I'm sitting over him but he's not breathing not looking at me with his beautiful brown eyes, I wish he was.

Next scene.

I'm in hospital sitting at this boys bed.

There's a woman crying in the hall with a man comforting her, well trying to.

I reach out a touch this boys hand.

It's cold like stone and pale.

I feel a strange feeling in my heart.

I don't know who he was but I know he was important to me.

Then I wake up.

Realisation washing over me like the morning sea.

I recognise the feeling in my heart.

It's called loss. Sadness. Depression. Heartbreak.

Then I curl up fighting with the emotions that had so suddenly taken over me.

This was the real world.

A harsh, Cruel place.

I stand up and grab the rope from my floor.

I'd had it ready now for 3 years.

I hooked it up...

Finally I could never wake up.

I was now with him in my thoughts forever.

He was once mine and I was once his.

Now we are neither the worlds or ourselves.

Ok then I guess I should explain.

I feel like this everyday.

Like I've lost someone and I just want to remember them forever.

But I'm not suicidal.

So I've put this in a story and put my point across.

Hope you liked it or at least was intrigued by it.

Please review.

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