|Is I'm sorry enough?
Author: Writingtobeme PM
She moved away when she was ten and now she's back. He's sorry for what he did when they were kids. She's still mad about that. He has feelings for her, again now. She's not too sure about how she feels. She's had a bad relationship before. He's had one too. Can she forgive him or will the past define the future for them forever?Rated: Fiction T - English - Romance/Humor - Chapters: 33 - Words: 80,412 - Reviews: 40 - Favs: 14 - Follows: 18 - Updated: 06-02-13 - Published: 09-15-12 - id: 3058474
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"Hannah wake up!" Someone yelled. I didn't know who it was I was exhausted so I didn't care either. I just sunk into my warm bed further. Then I felt the floor. We had just flown in from Oahu last night after three days of hiking Diamond head, Shopping at Ala Moana, and for Ben and I taking Jayce to the hotel park. I decided to make the best of my new sleeping arrangements and wrapped the blanket that had also fallen to the floor around me and snuggling into it.
"Hannah wake up please!" I recognized that it was the voice from earlier which I believed to be Sarah. I opened my eyes to see Sarah and Emma huddling over me.
"What? i'm tired" I said hoarsely.
"We're going to the Beach the guys and Jenna are waiting in the living room" Emma said pointing to the door that lead from my room to the living room. We weren't staying in a hotel this time since we're staying on Maui for more than three days. Our parents rented two beach front cottages one for all of us kids and one for the parents. It wasn't very big which was nice because it was cozy. I got up and went to change into my bikini top and surf shorts with a simple loose tank top to over that. I grabbed my sunscreen and went to the living room which was connected to a small kitchen to get an apple. I turned around to say hi to everyone, but I noticed Ben wasn't there.
"Where's Ben?" I asked.
"Well it's nice to see you Hannah" Jenna said sarcastically.
"Oh yeah Hey guys now can someone tell me where Ben is?"
"Gosh Hannah you can't even go one second without thinking about my brother he's asleep in his room" James said dryly. I rolled my eyes Jenna slapped him in the arm.
"What's wrong with wanting to know where he is I think it's cute how would you feel if I acted like I didn't care at all about you?" Jenna said while he was rubbing his arm.
"Okay I admit that" Then I cut in.
"I also didn't want to go to the beach with all of you knowing I'd be like a seventh wheel with out Ben" I said running to his room which was the last room on the guys side of the cottage. I opened the door to find him sprawled out on his bed in just his jeans. Heh I'm guessing he was too tired to change judging by the locked up suit cases. I giggled at the thought of him just passing out on his bed after walking in. I walked up to his bed and kneeled down so I was close to his face.
"Ben" I whispered softly into his ear. He just stirred around and then grabbed me in his sleep.
"Hannaaaaaah" He murmured. I giggled softly. I tried to get out of his grip, but he ended up pulling me on to his chest. I was face to face with him so I leaned forward and gave him a kiss so he would wake up. Nothing. I tried to wiggle my way out of his embrace, but his grip got tighter. Then I just noticed how shirtless he was and how defined his muscles were. He was so strong and his abs were so...so. I'm getting off task. I shook the thoughts from my head and went back to trying to wake him up.
"Ben wakey wakey" I said lightly. Still nothing. I wondered if I started to...nah it wouldn't...well it's worth a shot. I thought to myself before I started to trail light kisses along his jaw to his lips. Once his lips met mine I felt his hold loosen on me so I tried to get away, but then they tightened again and he started kissing me back. We kissed for a while before I started giggling and pulled away.
"You were awake weren't you?" I asked him.
"No I swear I wasn't I only felt it when you started kissing my jaw" He said smiling.
"Alright then get changed we're going to the beach" I said while getting off of his hard chest. Oh how I miss it already. That sounds weird, but I like it when he holds me.
"But can't we just stay here all day and sleep" He said giving me his puppy dog face.
"Nope Emma and Sarah won't let me I already ended up on the floor because I wouldn't get up so unless you want to stay here alone get changed"
"Fine, but one thing" He said as I was about to open his door. I spun around to face him.
"This" He said right before he grabbed me by the waist and pulled me to his chest to kiss me. I pulled away blushing before turning to the door.
"I'll see you in a bit Angel" He said smoothly.
"I am not an Angel, but it's cute when you call me that" I said walking out of the door.
"Yeah Angels don't kiss like that I guess I'm going to stick to sweetheart"
"Haha Funny" I said sarcastically while the door swung closed and as I walked to the living room. Everyone was still waiting, but even our parents were there.
"Hey mom, dad, Steven, Karen what are you guys doing here I thought you were going to do that whole couples spa that mom, and Karen were gushing on and on about" My dad and Steven looked like they were wishing they had some business meetings to go to instead of a couples spa.
"We were, but we just came to remind you and Ben that your Photo-shoot starts tomorrow, and it will go on during the week all the way to two days before we leave. The good thing is that you have a bunch of free time during the day so it'll still be a vacation. Also could you watch Tara too the sitter cancelled and..." I cut her off.
"Mom of course I can watch Tara it's not like I'm not watching Jayce anyway besides I can't get enough time with my baby sister" I said smiling my mom mouthed thank you and handed me Tara and her things.
"You'll have to change her though she's obviously not ready for the beach in her onesie" I nodded and they said their good byes and left. Then Ben came out of the room in his board shorts, and a surfer tank. He smiled when he saw me holding Tara.
"Okay since everyone is ready shall we get going?" I asked. They all nodded and Ben picked Jayce up off the ground and put him on his back to run out the door. I laughed and carried Tara to a shaded area on the beach where everyone was setting their things up. The girls just laid their towels in the shade and sat on them I set Tara down on the towel so I could change her all I had to do is unbutton her onesie get her arms out of the sleeves and slip her dress on before pulling the rest of her onesie off. The guys just ran for the water except for Ben playing frisbee with Jayce while us girls sat back and watched.
"So Hannah are you excited about the photo-shoot tomorrow" Jenna asked. Emma answered for me.
"Are you kidding me if Hannah hasn't stopped having this goofy grin on her face since we got to Hawaii" Then Sarah added in.
"Yeah all she's done is get excited when everyone talks about it"
"Ye-... What they said" I said pointing to Emma and Sarah. Tara was trying to crawl out of my reach.
"That's good" She said quietly while staring at Tara and smiling. I noticed that she was playing with her hand it was a ring...Wait! A ring?...it's on her ring finger James proposed. I smiled no wonder why she's been so giddy lately. She was zoning so I decided to ask her about it like it was nothing.
"So um Jenna when were you gonna tell everyone James proposed?" She immediately froze and looked at me.
"Okay seriously don't act like nothing happened you've been so giddy lately and the diamond ring on your finger explains a lot" She blushed, Emma and Sarah turned around to face her. I was happy for Jenna she wasn't born with money like me or Ben. Though we don't act spoiled we still can get what we want no problem. Jenna didn't come from that she came from hardship her parents weren't the best. Her dad left her and her mom when she was four, and her mom died of cancer when she was 16. They didn't have much money at all, but Jenna managed to get a full ride scholarship for college. She deserves this and I'm extremely happy for her.
"What! My brother actually proposed" Sarah yelled.
"Aaaaaaaaw that's so sweet" Emma gushed.
"Yes he proposed last night and I am so happy" She said sighing in content.
"Well we're happy for you" I said smiling Tara had managed to crawl to Jenna and have her pick her up.
"Yeah James has wanted to do that for a while and even asked me if it was the right time for him to ask you" Sarah said smiling. She was proud that she said nothing to anyone. After a bunch of wedding ideas Jenna told us that she and James decided to wait until after they finished college for the wedding which was a good amount of time away considering they're Juniors right now. I don't know how, but Tara managed to crawl to each of us and tried to play ball. After that all of us girls just relaxed in the shade. Then Ben came up to us while the other guys tried to teach Jayce how to surf.
"Hey Hannah you want to go into the water? " Ben asked grinning. He's up to something.
"I can't I'm watching Tara and the girls are about to head out it's alright you can head out if you want" The girls got up and left.
"Nah I'm good it's just really hot" He said while taking of his shirt. I covered Tara's ears before saying.
"Damn" I said staring at his abs.
"I've noticed you like what you see" He said smirking. "Of course I do have you seen your abs?" I asked. He just chuckled.
"Yeah I have. Have you seen yours? I mean for a girl you have some it's not a six pack, but that looks weird on a girl anyway, but they are there and they're pretty nice" I laughed wait since when does he know about my abs.
"Okay thanks I think, but how do you know about my abs?" I asked questioningly.
"I um well Imaybecouldofbeenwatchingyou getintothepoolbeforeschoolst artedatyourpartyandnoticedyo urreallysexyabandumyeah" He said really fast so I didn't understand.
"I'm sorry what did you just say?"
"I said that I maybe could of been watching you get into the pool before school started at your party and noticed your really sexy abs" He said sheepishly. I laughed and smirked at him as he sat down next to me.
"So you think my abs are sexy huh" I said whispering in his ear I saw him tense.
"Um yeah...oh hey Tara" He said while picking her up and tickling her sides. I laughed at his nervousness it was so cute. Today is gonna be a fun day.
After my awkward moment with Hannah about her abs and using Tara as a distraction Hannah and I just played with Tara. It was fun now that Tara could do a lot more things than just slowly crawl. Now she was pretty fast at crawling and could throw a ball pretty hard. She was so adorable just like Hannah. Right now Hannah was tickling her sides and I was watching. I decided to do something random and picked up Tara quickly putting her on my chest while plopping my back where she was lying down in front of Hannah. Hannah looked at me puzzled while Tara continued to giggle.
"What are you doing?" She asked me I just smirked at her.
"nothing carry in with tickling your sister" I said calmly hoping that I still kept her confused. Nope it didn't work she found a way to make me crack. She started to tickle Tara and I which was bad because for me I'm not really ticklish unless you find the right area which so happens to be where Hannah was touching me. I was laughing like crazy and Tara was giggling.
"Ok...o...kay stop...y...you...w...w..win" I said gasping for air. She laughed and took Tara from me. Jayce and the girls were coming back to the towels so I sat up next to Hannah. Jayce ran over to us and started to play with Tara.
"So why are you guys back so soon?" Hannah asked.
"We were hungry and the guys are too caught up with the waves Jayce just followed because he was hungry too" Emma said.
"Well there's some drinks and fruit in the cooler-" than someone caught her off.
"And we got some Poke, and some other food" An unfamiliar guy said with two girls and a guy standing behind him holding a cooler and smiling. I was about to ask who they were when Hannah jumped to her feet leaving Tara with Jayce to run and hug them. Who were they?
"Austin, Ara, Lynn, Layn you made it!" She squealed. All of us were confused except Jayce who was smiling at them.
"Of course we wouldn't of passed up a chance to see our cousins now would we?" The guy in front who I assumed to be Austin said. Well that answers who they were.
"Oh well then let me introduce you to everyone, Jayce go say hi to our cousins" she said as she went to go pick up Tara.
"Well this is Jenna, Emma, Sarah, and the confused looking hot guy over there is my boyfriend Ben the other guys are in the water they're James, Ethan, and Lucas"
"Guys these are my cousins Austin, Ara, Lynn, and Layn. They're both from my mom's side of the family and they're full asian I get the Scottish part from my dad" She said smiling clearly excited to see them. We all greeted each other.
"Hey Hannah don't you and Tara both have Lynn in your names too doesn't it get confusing?" I asked curiously.
"Well the two of them have another name before Lynn my sister doesn't so if we use full names it's Hannah-Lynn, Tara-Lynn, and Lynn so it's not really that confusing" Layn said. Wow her family and the name Lynn. I nodded in understanding.
"Lynn was our Grandma's name Ara has Lynn too, but it's in her first name so it's just Aralynn" Hannah said. I nodded again.
"So this is the newest cousin to the family little Tara-Lynn" Austin said walking up to Hannah and Tara and lightly tapping her nose causing Tara to giggle.
"Yep she is and I think she's the cutest" Ara said coming up to her.
"The youngest girl is always the cutest that's why we used to mess with Hannah all the time" Lynn said in a little kid voice pinching Hannah's cheeks. I laughed they make it like Hannah's five years old. Austin took Tara from Hannah and started to make her laugh.
"Okay two years I'm younger than you two. Two years doesn't automatically make me cute" She said huffing.
"Yes it does" Ara and Lynn said at the same time. I took this as perfect timing to pick up Hannah by the waist and throw her into the water.
"So while you guys get to know the girls I'm going to mess with your cousin watch Tara for us" I yelled over my shoulder while Hannah was squirming around in my arms. I walked into about two feet of water and just dropped her and started laughing. Since it was really shallow water only half of her got wet. Her hair was still dry since it was up in a messy bun. She started to laugh as she got up and let her hair down.
"I'm so going to get you for that" She said while she started to run towards where the towels were. I beat her to it and grabbed her towel before running away. Little did I know she had a trick up her sleeve. As I started to hold the towel high out of her reach she pulled out an open cold water bottle and sprayed some of the freezing cold water on me. I shivered and dropped the towel only to have her pick it up and run from me.
"Who needs a hug" I said as she turned around to face me knowing that she wasn't fast enough to run away from me.
"No stay back unless you want to get sprayed again" She threatened holding the water bottle at my face. I figured if I got wet trying to hug her she would still feel the ice cold water so I had nothing to lose and went for it. I hugged her, but not before getting soaked with the rest of the water. I ended up picking her up and spinning her around. When I set her down she tossed the towel at me and started to walk back to her cousins and our friends who were currently eating. I opened up the towel, enveloped her in it, and lifted her up again.
"Ben put me down" She said laughing
"No not until yell out all your feelings for me to the world" I said laughing.
"Fine Ben park is the sweetest most adorable, caring, thoughtful, funny, crazy, stupid and loving, not to mention incredibly hot boyfriend and I am in love with him!" She yelled while I was still lifting her up. I set her down and kissed her pulling her closer to me. I knew what she was saying was the truth even though she was saying it to get back on the ground. I loved that she thought of me that way. She wrapped her arms around my neck and deepened the kiss.
Normally I knew she would feel indecent, but she was around her friends and family not a bunch of random kids at school so I knew she didn't feel indecent about this kiss. We pulled away breathless and she leaned her head onto my chest.
"I love you too and Hannah-Lynn Taylor is the most amazing, cute, funny, adorable, lovable, sexy, sensitive, caring, lovable, kind, and friendly girlfriend and she is mine to love and hold like this I am so deep in my love for her that I can't find my way out not that I want to find my way out!" I yelled before kissing her nose. She scrunched up her nose while I did. I meant every word I just said. I love her and I am so happy that I get to spend so much time with her.