The Guy Best Friend

I remember the first time we met, was actually okay. We got along really well, surprisingly. I said surprisingly because I don't get along with boys this easily. We've had a few struggles with each other yet we figure out a way to sort them out. Our class always says that we're inseparable because we actually are. They also say that we should go out as a couple. We actually just ignore it or most of the time we play around with it like joking around.

We've actually already had a talk about this subject. It was actually pretty awkward but he says we should really think about this, like not rush into things because we both don't want to lose this special friendship we have now. He's my first guy best friend as well, so hard.

I asked another close friend about this, and she said that we would make a cute couple and everyone else thinks the same thing but it's one hard decision to make when you're actually the person in this kind of situation.

One of the things I love about him is that he's a gentleman, like he would stand up for you when people really tease you and stuff. One time, we were waiting for the bus outside the train station after a college trip. This was like around December, I didn't have any gloves on and I was shaking so much because it was freezing. He saw me shivering and so he took my hands and brought them close to his mouth and blew them then rubbed it to make them warm. I found that so sweet, but was he doing that in a friendly way or different? Confusing I know. He protects me like earlier, we left kind of late from the cinema with a few friends from college for one of them who celebrated their birthday. He decided to accompany me to my bus stop and even waited with me till my bus came, then ended up missing his bus across the road. I kind of begged him to stay longer with me though but he didn't really mind because his house was only one bus away.

We took a lot of pictures on Tuesday and Thursday. We both really liked the photos that were taken of us two, him giving me a piggyback in most of them. I edited a few of them and posted it on social sites. Just last night, I realised he made one of our photos that I edited as his cover photo on one of the sites. It used to be a photo of Rihanna, now it's me and him. I couldn't believe he changed it, just wow. Stuff like that he does, just really confuses me sometimes, if he likes me more than a friend or more than that.

We only got a few more months of college. Maybe I'm just feeling this way because Goodbye is soon and I hate that so much. I'll miss him so much, I wish we would be able to go to the same university then we can still see each other regularly you know? Why does it have to be like this? Why can't we stay in college forever so this doesn't need to end, Lord help me please? Is he the guy for me? I ask for a sign, lead me the way. I leave this in your hands, you know what's best for me anyway.