two.

I'm sorry.

Okay I'm so so so so so so sorry. I don't know how many more times I can apologize before it gets through your perfectly hair sprayed hair and thick head that I feel really bad about what I said and how I reacted.

I didn't mean to laugh, pretend to be disgusted. I didn't mean to say no every single time. I didn't mean to lie and say I never liked you when in reality I had the biggest crush on you in the world. I never meant to laugh in your face when you told me my laugh was adorable and I never meant to be so mean.

But I miss you okay? I miss you so much. I miss your smile and I miss texting you at two in the morning and waking up early to text you all over again. I miss late nights online on facebook. I miss random conversations. I miss having a best friend who I could talk to about my parents splitting and my mom and his late night fits of anger and my dad leaving and my sister moving out and my stress and my past. I miss listening about your day and reminding you to do your homework.

We were supposed to go to the fair this weekend, one day the movies. I remembered how long it took you to ask me to go. I can't forget how big of a smile I had when you asked me. I told everyone about you and hey all said I never looked so happy. You just made me so giddy inside.

I never meant to be mean to you. But I miss you & I really want you to know how sorry I am.

Please.

I'm so sorry.