Can't swim

Next to my bed, my hands held close to my chest,

I attempt to talk to Him.

My problems keep seeping in.

I kneel there close; my droopy eyes deny I should pray.

Another night gone that leads me astray

A broken heart leaves me lost in my existence.

We've grown apart, and I've no one left to listen.

With my cheek turned, all the facts I refuse to see,

Without Him, I can't live my life in harmony.

I wish I knew how to swim,

I drown whenever I get in.

My foot touches the water and I fall.

The deep end catches me because I can't face this storm.

Withered waters in my way,

But why? Oh why do I still refuse to pray?

I keep diving; I never attempt to take it slow.

I keep striving, but somehow always let go.

Like an erupted cannonball, hurts more than heals.

Like a requited gnaw, conceals more than reveals.

I wish I knew how to swim,

I drown whenever I get in.

My foot touches the water and I fall.

The deep end catches me because I can't face this storm.

Withered waters in my way,

But why? Oh why do I still refuse to pray?

Next to my bed, my hands held close to my chest,

I don't know what to say.

I can't find the right way to pray.

I kneel there close; my droopy eyes command me to sleep.

My strength's gone and my will power's so very weak.

I stare, as the cross-bearing saviour stares back.

Why should I care? I am still walking off track.

Though, if I paddled a little further, my destination won't seem so far.

If I swam a little deeper, I may stream away from the restricting reservoir.

I wish I knew how to swim,

I drown whenever I get in.

My foot touches the water and I fall.

The deep end catches me because I can't face this storm.

Withered waters in my way,

But why? Oh why do I still refuse to pray?