At Best 10/09/2012

Tell me can you keep a secret?

I am weak at best, more broken than the rest.

Maybe I been this way all along,

Just bound to be used, tormented, and abused

Or maybe I'm the shadow of a girl

Who simply lost her way in this cold, cruel world

A girl who was once filled with hopes and dreams

Until it was stolen away in the midst of screams

Maybe I was doomed from the start

Someone who was made to fall apart

I'm not who you think I ought to be

I am tainted,

An unpainted canvas that's been long forgotten.

I'm not worthy,

Always dirty, please just leave me here to fade

What good is a girl who is damaged goods?

What use is a woman who never does what she should?

What's the point in helping a soul who doesn't deserve to be saved?

Can't you see I'm a disgrace?

You don't know how empty I feel

It tears me apart, starting right at my heart

And nothing can fill this hole anymore

So I take a blade to remove it completely

But then I'm left with an even bigger disaster

A deeper sorrow that I make thereafter

And the cycle continues till I have nothing more

And everyone sees the vulnerability straight to my core

Tell me how did I end up in this place

Surrounded by no hope or grace

I'll never be who you think I ought to be

I am tainted,

An unpainted canvas that's been long forgotten.

I'm not worthy,

Always dirty, please just leave me here to fade

What good is a girl who is damaged goods?

What use is a woman who never does what she should?

What's the point in helping a soul who doesn't deserve to be saved?

Can't you see I'm a disgrace?

I'm the girl you save for a rainy day

The one when you're done you cast away

I'm not meant to shine in this life

I'm the soul broken beyond repair

You can try to fix me if you dare

But we both know I was just meant to be this way

I am tainted,

An unpainted canvas that's been long forgotten.

I'm not worthy,

Always dirty, please just leave me here to fade

What good is a girl who is damaged goods?

What use is a woman who never does what she should?

What's the point in helping a soul who doesn't deserve to be saved?

Can't you see I'm a disgrace?

Tell me can you keep a secret?

I don't want to be weak at best…