|Dead or Alive
Author: Dekomori PM
"Y-You don't know?" Jay asked, stuttering like a fool. I shook my head. Bel responded for him. "She died Jason. S-She was murdered yesterday. By her mother." I promise I'll be with you. Whether dead or alive. One-shot.Rated: Fiction T - English - Romance/Angst - Words: 1,957 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 1 - Published: 10-27-12 - Status: Complete - id: 3069164
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So, this is just an idea I had when I was younger and I decided to make it into a one-shot.
AND IT'LL STAY A ONE-SHOT!
This will be the saddest thing I would've ever written. I think I'll cry while writing this...
Inspired by When Five Fell, The Last, and Strangers, Again. All of these by Wong Fu Productions.
"We delight in the promise of falling for love.
We crumble in the dread of falling from love.
Everyone falls. Everything falls." - Wesley Chan
I head towards my friends who were talking about something. An unsettling silence fell upon them as I joined them.
"Hey, where's Alyssa?" I asked. Alyssa was a beautiful, ginger haired, green eyed girl that I liked. She usually tagged along during our Movie Nights. Practically all of my friends knew I like her. Except for her.
"Y-You don't know?" Jay asked, stuttering like a fool. I shook my head. I was getting nervous. Alyssa would've told us if she couldn't come. Or didn't want to.
I pushed that voice out of my mind. You see, I had two voices in my head: One which makes me look on the bright side of things, and one that brings me back to the cold reality. Lately, the 'Cold Reality' one, told me I would hear something unbelievable. As always, I didn't believe what it told me.
My friends exchanged glances, as if debating who would tell me. They all looked towards Bel, the oldest out of all of us. Bel heavily sighed and spoke.
"She died Jason. S-She was murdered yesterday. By her mother." I almost collapsed at her words. I never thought, that the person I loved would be murdered by her mother...
I stumbled back, only for Andy to catch me before I fell. That's all I remember before everything went black.
I shoot out of bed like a rocket. It was all a dream.
For a moment I was relieved. That would mean that Alyssa was still alive. That means tha-
"You alright, dude? You blacked out in the parking lot." Andy asked. Wait... But then...
I bury my face into my hands, letting the tears flow out of my eyes. Andy patted my back.
"I'll leave you alone for a while." He said, exiting my room. My bloodshot eyes eventually drifted off to a box on my desk. I sluggishly walked towards it and opened it. I smiled at it's contents.
It was filled with pictures of me and Alyssa, all of them labeled with a blue sharpie on the back. I grabbed the pictures and went back to my bed. I grabbed the first photo I ever took with her and smiled.
Jason and Alyssa
August 7th, 2001
Age: 6 and 5
When we met~
"Mommy! I wanna go on the swings!" I yelled as I ran towards the large swing set.
"Yes!" I yelled as I fist pumped the air when I got a swing. A girl around my age sat on the swing beside me.
"I bet I can go higher than you!" The girl challenged. I smirked.
"You're on!" I yelled, already starting. The girl gave me a toothy smile before starting.
"Ha!" The girl yelled as she passed me. My mouth formed the only perfect 'o'. Nobody beats the She swing Master! I planned on going higher if it wasn't for my mom who interrupted me.
"Jason be careful, you're going to get hurt" Mom tells me. This is my cue to slow down. I reluctantly drag my feet along the ground. I hop off the swing to see that the ginger haired girl beside me has done the same.
"Ha! I beat you!" The girl announced. A woman around mom's age comes towards us.
"Now, now, Alyssa." The woman, who I take for the young girl's mom, says, straightening her daughter's thin sweater. She then smiled at me. "Who's your friend?"
"I'm name's Jason," I said, returning the smile.
"Well then, smile for the camera!" Alyssa's mom said. Alyssa and I showed off our toothy grins for the camera.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
Every friendship always starts off with you guys being strangers. How you meet, it could be at a party, at school, or you can meet at a swing set. You could be introduced by a friend, sibling, or you can meet on your own. No matter what, you always start off as strangers.
Now that she's gone... Am I the stranger now?
I put the picture back and skip a dozens pictures. I pull out one of my favourites. This one was took around the time I started to like her.
Jason and Alyssa
May 13th, 2003
Age: 8 and 8
Field trip to the beach~
"Come on!" Alyssa said as she grabbed my wrist. We ran towards the sea, leaving the rest of the class behind.
"Slow down!" Mrs. Walker yelled after us. We ignored her as we splashed around in the waves. Alyssa screamed behind me. I turned around to see her head emerge for the water. I laughed since she fell into the water. I later regretted doing that because she pulled me into the water with her.
"If I'm going down, you're coming down with me." She explained as we dried ourselves with towels. Alyssa's mom walked over to us, camera in hand.
"Say cheese!" She said.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
As the years go by, you can decide if you want to build on your friendship, or take each other for granted. We built on our friendship during those two years instead of taking each other for granted. If you take each other for granted, your friendship will fade and soon, you'll just go back where you started. You'll become strangers again.
What happened in eleven years that I knew her... Did I take her for granted? Do I know her still?
I put the picture aside and skim through the other pictures, looking for the best memories. I see one that I have almost forgotten about.
Jason and Alyssa
September 7th, 2008
Age: 13 and 13
First day of high school
I promise, that before high school ends, I'll be with you. Whether dead or alive.
"Bye mom!" I yelled as I ran out the door. I went two doors down to pick up Alyssa so we could walk to school together like we always do. I knocked three times before Alyssa opened the door.
"Ready?" I asked. Alyssa shot me the toothy grin I have loved from the start.
"Ready." She responded. We walked towards the large brick building known as high school.
"What do you think high school will be like?" I asked. She shrugged.
"Seven crappy hours of our life." She said, earning a laugh from me. She pulled out a digital camera out of her backpack and motioned me to come beside her.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
We went through our ups and downs together, and we made it to high school together. But I failed to keep that promise. I failed to get with her before high school ended.
Before her life ended.
I get out of bed and go downstairs. I ignore my mother's calls and head out to the playground where Alyssa and I first met. I sit down on the bright blue swing and watch the little kids play. A ginger haired girl caught my attention.
Her green eyes... Her love for competition...
How much she reminded me of Alyssa was scary. I bury my face into my hands again but this time I force myself not to cry. A little boy walks up to me and takes a seat on the swing beside me.
"You alright?" He asked. I smile.
"I-I'm fine." I lie. He furrows his eyebrows at me.
"You're a horrible liar, did you know that?" He asked, the corners of his lips curving upward.
"So I've been told," I say, smiling myself. "What's your name?"
"Wesley, but call me Wes." (Wong Fu Productions! Woo!) He replied. I force a smile onto my face. Alyssa had a dog named Wes...
Why must everything remind me of her?
"My name's Jason," I said, shaking Wes' hand.
"Anyways, Jason, what's wrong?" Wes asked, curiosity written across his face.
"Well, my-" I was cut off by one of Wes' friends.
"Wes! Are you going to play Tag or not?!" The ginger haired girl asked. Wes smiled at her.
"I'm coming, Cathy!" (Wes + Cathy :D) He yelled back. Before he left, Wes turned to me.
"Bye, Jason!" He said. I simply waved as he went to join his friends. I got off the swing and go to the nearest bus stop.
Man I need my drivers licence.
The bus eventually came and I reluctantly got on. Dropping coins into the machine, I take the seat nearest to me. My mind drifted off to the place I was going to.
The crash of the waves, the warm sand...
The Gr. 3 field trip...
The smell of the sea filled my mind. I leave the bus and walk towards the sea, sand getting in my converses. Kids screamed as they fell into the water. I miss the days in Gr. 3.
I miss the days when Alyssa was alive...
Stop it! Stop it now! I run my hands through my hair, my hands threatening to pull some out. The 'Cold Reality' will never leave me alone! I fall to my knees and scream out loud. Everyone stopped what they were doing and looked towards me. I shook terribly. I then get up as if nothing happened and go to the last stop on my 'trip'.
My high school seems larger than usual. I go right to the front doors and do the stupidest thing I have ever done in my 17 years of my life.
My fist collided with the window quite nicely. I cringe as the blood runs down my arm. The school alarm goes off, but that's not the thing on my mind.
Alyssa. Death. The promise...
Alarms go off in the distance, signaling that the police are coming. I run around the school back home.
"Stop!" A policeman calls after me. I don't. I keep running towards my house. Drops of blood make a trail behind me. I practically break down my front door as I run through.
"Jason!" My mom yells, eyeing my bloody arm. I run past her and go to my room. I lock the door behind me as I hear police barge through my front door. Time seemed to slow down. I go to my closet and grab an old, but strong skipping rope.
The hook on my ceiling catches my attention. I tie one end of the rope on it, and tie the other one into a hoop.
"This is it..." I whisper, my voice barely audible. I step on my bed as I put my head through the hoop. I jump off my bed, my final thoughts run through my head. I promised I would be with her.
Whether dead or alive.
How sad. So, to sum up what happened:
Jason loved Alyssa so when he hears about her death, he becomes deeply depressed. The flashbacks and 'Cold Reality' push him to insanity and eventually, suicide.
The point of this story is that, someone an love you enough to commit suicide to be with you. Forever lasting love...