Wow... What a week!

I decided to quit cadets, well I decided a long time ago but I finally convinced my parents to allow me to do so.

But guess what? The damn warrant officer talked me out of it... well sort of. I sort of went back to the place and I couldn't leave. As much as it pains me to say this, that disgusting, filthy place is a part of me. Despite all the emotions I have felt these recent months, that place changed me... for good or for bad? I really don't know.

When I told the Warrant Officer I was quitting, he kept asking me what was wrong... I couldn't bring myself to tell him I have no friends. So basically, he made me take a leave of absence until the new year (I have exams and stuff) and if I still feel the same then, he'll allow me to leave with putting up less of a fight than usual.

Also, I got an xbox.

I'm not allowed to open it until christmas however.. but I still have one?

I'm fat too..

I wish I had more to say, but I'm so numb right now.

I am so confused about my life.

I'm terrified about my exams and prelims and everything else.

I feel sick constantly, like a "study plague".