I pushed the blade more in to my arm, pain traveled through my body as the blade slide further up my arm to join the rest of my open wounds. Tears pouring down my face as my blood slowly drips to the carpet, i look at my wall and finish my note signing Jayden underneath. My body slowly falls to the ground as black veil brides travels around my dark room, taking the last of the tablets i lay on the ground, tears pouring out my eyes and my blood coating around my body as i started to wonder how did my life get like this ...

1 YEAR BEFORE...

"Jayden get up now "my social worker yelled for the fifth time "your dads here hurry up!" i slowly got up rubbing my eyes as i walked to the bathroom. My names Jayden if you haven't guessed I'm 17 and living in England my parents got divorced when i was 12/13 and i was made to live with my mum however she passed away a few weeks ago so i had stayed with my social worker until my dad could pick me up, you see my dad has an amazing job I'm not sure what he does exactly but i know he travels a lot so it must be an amazing job right. I about 5 foot 2 -yeah i know I'm short- i have longish black hair and blue doe eyes so everyone says anyway. I'm quite pale and don't tan. EVER.

I finished getting ready quickly as i ran down the stairs as fast as i could, i haven't seen my dad for years and i was really looking forward to it. I slowed down once i got to the living room as i heard my name being mentioned "Mr Evan here's Jayden's medication i know he doesn't like taking it but he has to we don't want what happened before to happen again" my social worker said. I saw my dad just nod as he took the bottle. I slowly walked into the room with a fake smile on my face "Jayden there you are, how you been you've gotten tall haven't you?" my dad said awkwardly. i signed loudly " dad i haven't grown since you and mum got divorced" i said looking at my feet "right" my dad said as he cleared his throat "anyway i think we should get going" he said as he lead me out to his sports car "thanks a lot for looking after him Tina i dad said and he shook her hand "ah anytime Mr Evens and if you ever need help just call and I'll be there "Tina said with a smile as she waved us off.

"so Jayden I'm really excited that your coming to live with us this is going to be great Alice can't wait to finally meet you" my dad smiled. Alice is my step mum I've spoken to her a lot on the computer, i haven't met her yet thought but she seem nice so that's good " so we've painted and done your room you have black walls and furniture and red and grey around the room i really hope you like it you said your favourite colours where those " he carried on describing my room. "Dad" i cut into him talking " i will like it either way but you didn't have to do any of this really I'm just glad your letting me live with you" i truly smiled which i haven't done for ages "well why wouldn't i Jayden you are my son" he laughed if you knew the true me you wouldn't i thought to myself the rest of the ride was kind of quite my dad asked me what i was into and stuff.

"Ah were here." My dad said as he parked the car. I looked up at the huge white house. I got out of the car and followed my dad to the front door "don't worry about your stuff I'll get it later for you okay?" my dad asked i think so i just nodded as he opened the front door. As i walked in it looked even bigger and everything looked expensive. "Jake your back, ah Jayden i happy to finally meet you" Alice said as she walked up to us and shook my hand "my do you look like your father" she smiled "oh erm thank you" i smiled "your welcome so shall we show you around?" she asked i nodded and the tour began the house looked amazing we finally got to my room and i almost fainted it was amazing "do you like it?" Alice asked "I,I,I love it thank you" i smiled as i walked in looking around at everything "this is amazing" I smiled as i sat on the bed "well I'm glad you like it your dad said you liked these colours" she said "yeah" i said.

A few hours went by as i unpacked all of my things and were just about to eat dinner. "Thank you so much i really appreciate it" i said "no need to thank us jay you are my son" my dad said as we began to eat. "so Alice and i have sorted out your school and everything for you and you start Westwood tomorrow" he smiled and i just nodded "we also hung your uniform in the room for you which i guessed you have seen, you're in fire house and your card and forms are all on the desk in your room to" my dad finish and i just nodded. I helped Alice after dinner with the dishes and went upstairs for and early night and to get ready for school tomorrow. YIPPIE. Note to self don't mess up school here like the last guess i just got to wish myself luck and pray for the best.

I've been up all night terrified to go to school; I'll just say school and me don't get along at all. I stared at my phone 6:30 am it read. Signing i forced my tired body out of bed, the cold air hit me hard as i stumbled into the bathroom and turning on the shower.

The water got warm quickly and i jumped into it trying to wake myself up which it did thankfully after the shower i got out dried and put on my uniform which a basic white shirt black, white and yellow tie jeans trousers and a blazer with the school sign on. I quickly brushed my hair and checked how i looked awful i said to myself.

After trying to make myself look better i finally just gave up. Walking downstairs i saw my tablets on the desk after realizing no one was down here i quickly though them away no way was i going to take them. I don't really see why i should there is nothing wrong with me i am fine, perfectly fine.

My dad dropped me off at school at 8 am after telling me i needed to go to the man office to get my timetable. Luckily the main office was right at the front so i didn't really have to look that much, so far however this school is ordinary and plain.

I walked up to the main desk quickly an old lady was sitting their "hello can i help you?" she asked i nodded and handed her my papers "Ah Mr Evans it is a pleasure to have you here please take a sit while i get your timetable" i nodded and quickly sat down as the school bell rung.

a few minutes later a bunch of guys walked in talking and laughing as they walked up to the main desk "ah Jesse i was wondering when you and your friends would get here" the old lady said "why did you miss us already" the guy i presumed was Jesse replied "NO" she said sternly as i giggled, Jesse quickly turned and faced me "you think that was funny newbie" he said staring at me.

"Jesse please leave Jayden alone actually you could do me a favour" she said "well that depends what do i get out of it hmm" Jesse replied "well i wont give you and your friends detention today" she smiled "deal, what do you want me to do" he said eagerly "ah well i did you to show Jayden around the school since you guys are in the same class" she said and he just nodded "good Jayden here you go" the old lady said as she gave me my timetable "Jesse here will show you around if you have question find me okay" i nodded and with that me, Jesse and his friends left.

After about an hour Jesse and showed me around the big school and to my judgement i was right, this will be a boring school year.