i have been texting both you and him all day.
but today i suddenly became more interested
in talking to you than to him.

this is wrong. i've been with him for seven months.
and you're just my best friend.

maybe it's because i want something new to
write poems about, even though he could
provide me with inspiration for the rest of my life,
which is how long i plan to be with him.

i know i'm not getting bored of him, but maybe
i'm subconsciously excited for something new.
this always happens when i'm in a serious
relationship.

i'm not in love with you,
just the idea of something new.

however, i am in love with him,
and i don't plan to jeopardize
what i have with him.

but i wish things weren't so complicated
with you.

12-8-12