I have been feeling like the person I once was. The one who didn't like to make friends because of a fear that they would just use her or hate her. The one that felt alone in a crowded room. I just feel very low right now.

Alone But Surrounded

I look around and what do I see

A group of people

Yet I don't think they see me

I am feeling feeble

I run through every word before I say it

For fear that they would leave

So here I just sit

Hoping and praying that they won't forget me

I look at pictures and see the fun they had

Am I not allowed to have fun too

It's not that I'm mad

I had stuff to do

Lying in the cold

I look up at the stars

Thinking about the times of old

Sitting on the tires and watching cars

At least I knew where I stood

Here I am venturing into new grounds

Trying to catch up, wishing I could

Hoping that I will be found

The fake smile is coming back

The lies are being told

Too many to keep track

Don't leave me out in the cold

I know I am not normal

You don't need to remind me

If you want I can be formal

Just don't leave me be

This is something I wrote to get the feeling of loneliness out of my system.