|Life Isn't Easy
Author: babyVEE PM
From being bullied to bullying, Lillian Fleming was bullied for five years by popular girl Annie Harrison. Lillian has had enough of the constant bullying and decided that it was time for payback. Lillian plans to ruin Annie's life but it was kept a secret from everyone, until all star soccer captain, Tristan Hayes found out this little secret Lillian is carrying.Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 7 - Words: 22,094 - Reviews: 24 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 01-13-13 - Published: 12-12-12 - id: 3082303
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"So how come we seriously never seen you around?" Brian asked me as I followed him to the popular table, yes I said it the popular table. Edwin was with us earlier but he had offered to buy me lunch which was sweet of him because no one has ever bought my food before well except my parents. Brian pulled a chair out for me as I sat down giving him a smile, unfortunately my smile disappeared because we were not alone. I saw Annie and her crew sitting at the other end of the table, glaring at me with full force. I looked away immediately because her glare was very intimidating, god I don't even know why I'm so scared of her. Soon more of the popular group joined us at the table, basket ball players, more football players, soccer players, cheerleading, yup, all of them were here and they all stared at me wondering who I was.
"Who's this Brian?" Cecilia asked, she was the vice captain on the cheerleading squad. She looked up and down at me and then smile as if she approves of me.
"This is Lillian," Brian introduced us, "we just thought maybe we could get a new girl around our group or something."
"I see," Cecilia looked at me, "do you do any athletic activities?" I shook my head, I could lie but then I am seriously terrible at sport. I think the only sport I can do is swimming, and I'm not even good at it. If I were to fall into the deep end of the swimming pool, I swear I will really drown.
"Really? What a shame, you look hot that you can even be in the cheerleading squad." Oh please, not in a million years. "Hey Annie!" She called out to her and Annie looked over to our direction and once again, she glared at me. "Don't you think Lillian can so try out for the cheerleading squad?" I saw Annie rolling her eyes and then flicked her hair.
"Oh please sweetie." Annie called back, "Lillian? She can't do it. I bet she can't even do the splits." And Annie was right, I don't even think I could touch my toes, that is how inflexible I am.
"Aw really? Can she be own mascot or something? I think she can totally pull it off." What? Excuse me? A mascot? What do you take me for? I looked at Annie and she let out a small giggled then her eyes was brighten as she saw Tristan approaching.
"Tristan sweetie!" Annie waved him over and he was now at the edge of the table, Annie linked her arms into his immediately. Annie pulled it to give Tristan a kiss on the cheek and Tristan didn't refuse it. Oh my god, are they really dating? I continued studying Annie and Tristan, oh my god I feel so sorry for Tristan, what does he even see in her? I felt Annie looking back at me and gave me face, sort of telling me 'are you jealous?' kind of face.
"Annie?" Cecilia continued and Annie looked at her.
"Yes?" She replied and was still clinging closely to Tristan.
"What do you think? Lillian as our mascot?" Annie looked at me then looked back at Cecilia.
"You know, I will accept her under one condition." Annie looked at me and then grinned, I knew she has something terrible up her sleeves but I just don't know what this condition could be. "Lillian sweetie." She called me and I looked at her, "you see that poor girl over there?" She pointed towards a petite dark haired girl with glasses and she was sitting by herself in the corner of the cafeteria as she was reading a book. Oh no, what is she planning to do? I looked back at her and she still have the same sinister grin on her face.
"What about her?" I asked and then she flicked her hair.
"Her sight is annoying me, tell her to get out of there. Use whatever method you wish." What? Is she telling me to go bully her? I stared at the girl, what has she done to you Annie? What? I looked back at Annie who gestured me to go, I could see Tristan staring at me, wondering what I was going to do. I sat there thinking what I was going to do, should I seriously go bully that girl for no reason? But if I don't, my plan to ruin Annie's life this year might be in vein. "I'm sure you know how to bully right?" Annie said with a grin on her face. I clenched my hands into a fist and got up from my seat and approached the girl. I felt everyone's eyes from the popular table piercing my back and wondering what I was going to do. I slowly inched forwards and then she looked up at me because I was now in her view. I looked over my shoulder slightly, do I really have to? I still held my hand in a fist and I took a deep breath, gathering all of my courage and faced the poor innocent girl, who looked terrified.
"I'm sorry." I whispered and the girl looked surprised and was confused of why I said it.
"What?" She muttered back and then I turned into a completely different person.
"Get out of here." I shouted in a rude tone of voice and it was loud enough for Annie's group to hear. The girl looked up at me, wondering what was happening.
"What?" She started shuttering, afraid of what was coming next. I caught a glimpse of what book she was reading and she was reading Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice, one of my favourite books from her and it was one of those limited edition book, I also have a copy of it at home and it's crazy expensive. I looked back up at her and she was terrified, was I really that scary? I picked up her bottle of juice from her lunch tray and uncapped the cap and slowly tilted it over her book as it happened to me many times before from when Annie was bullying me. I am just using her tricks that I've experienced over the years.
"I told you to get out of here." I said in a scary tone of voice, threatening her. "You're so slow." I started pouring the juice all over her book, it's painful for me to do this. I hope that she could read my mind, feel what I was feeling for doing this. Slowly I saw her face breaking down and started crying and screaming, hugging her book tightly against her as she stormed off. I held the empty juice bottle in front of me and I crushed it, how? How could Annie be doing this to me for the past five years? This is turning my guts, I feel awful, terrible. This is worse than getting bullied, I hope that I'll never have to do this ever again. Never. I stood there for awhile, calming down my nerves and I threw the bottle into the garbage bin and headed back to the table. I looked at Annie, her face was surprised because she can't believe I actually did what I just did, and I can't believe it either. I feel so ashamed, but I can't let them see it, I'm one of them now right?
"Wow, you showed that girl." Brian started, "you're quite mean if you want to be."
"I suppose," and gave him a fake smile, sitting back down at my seat.
"So Annie?" Cecilia started, "she passed right?"
"I suppose." Annie replied and she flicked her hair. I clenched my hands into a fist underneath the table so that no one could see, oh god I can't believe I just did that, I hurt someone's feeling just because I want to get revenge on Annie by being closer to her? This isn't right, but I have to, I have to let Annie have a taste of her own medicine. I looked up at Annie who didn't really cared what had happened as it didn't affect her. She paid all of her attention on Tristan who was staring directly at me, I looked away immediately, god Lillian what on earth is happening to you? This is only the first day of your mission, you can't abort now.
Surprisingly, my popularity grew the next day, random people started saying hello to me when I didn't even know who they were. Was this seriously the only way to become popular? Be the bully and hang out with the right crew? In class, more and more people started talking to me and wanted to be friends with me. I have never had people coming up to me to talk to me to be friends, this was actually making me quite happy. Everyone in the popular group knows who I am now, and has accepted me into their circle of friends.
"Rule number one, you are not allow to speak to losers like him, and her, and him." Cara, one of Annie's little side kick told me as we walked down the hallway and she pointed out the 'losers' "If they do talk to you, ignore them."
"What if they won't leave me alone?" I asked and she looked at me.
"Tell them to fuck off, bully them, use whatever methods necessary. Those loser don't belong with us, we are totally different than they are." No we're not Cara. We are more of a loser than they are, those people are what you call real people. But I can't really defend them as I have never really had friends for the past few years, nor do I trust people.
"Okay," I replied.
"Well, we have cheer leading practice in ten minutes in the gym. Are you going to come?" Cara asked. Cheer leading practice? Psh yeah right, not in a million years I thought and I shook my head.
"Sorry, I have something to do." I replied and she shrugged it off, not even bothering why I didn't want to go. She continued her way without saying bye or waving back to me as I just stood there. Good, this is the perfect timing, I rushed to my locker and took my limited edition Jane Austen Pride and Prejudice and placed it into my bag. Whatever happened yesterday at lunch, I just can't live with myself, I feel terrible. This is seriously making me wonder, what the hell am I doing exactly? I ran through the halls, hoping, just praying that I'll see that girl again so that I could apologize and give her my copy. I ran down the hallway, not once but twice throughout the whole school and then to my luck I found her coming out of the Science room. I ran up to her and she was taken back, afraid of me and didn't know what I was going to do to her.
"Hey," I said softly and she took a step back. "I'm sorry." I started and then she looked at me confused. "Look about yesterday," I paused "I-I really didn't mean to do it. I feel really bad for doing something like that to you."
"Um-" she started "it's okay." she finally said and I looked at her, still holding the juiced up book in her hands along with her Biology textbook. I snapped her book away from her and she looked up at me, wondering what I was going to do this time. I smiled at her and I went through my bag, and pulled out my mint condition copy and handed it to her. She looked at me with kind eyes and I continued to smile at her.
"Let's trade." I told her and she took my copy into her hands while I placed her juiced up copy into my bag.
"But," she started. "How did you get this? This book-"
"I know it's limited edition, but I'm actually quite a fan of Jane Austen's books." I smiled at her and was ready to turn to leave but she stopped me.
"Um-" She started "I'm not sure why you did what you did yesterday, but you're a nice person. You don't need to be popular to survive high school." she smiled at me sincerely and I smiled back.
"I know," I replied kindly "but there's just something I have to do. And for whatever I did to you yesterday, brought me a step closer I think."
"I don't know what you're planning to do but," She paused "I don't think it's the right way of doing it." I stood there, listening to what she had to say to me. "Is bullying someone really worth what you're planning to do?" Yes, it is. I want to see Annie's life crumbling down, her queen position, becoming nothing but a position worse than being in jail.
"Yes. I want Annie's life to crumble like she crumbled mine." I replied and turned to leave and then my jaws dropped as I saw Tristan Hayes standing there, leaning against the wall. He must have heard everything, oh no, he's going to tell Annie and then my plan, everything's going to be ruined, I'm going to become the bullied, the lonely Lillian Fleming once again. I froze stiff in the spot I was standing, the girl looked at me and then looked at Tristan, then she figured out what was going on. I stared at Tristan and he was also staring back at me, then he let out a small smirk and started walking away. Oh no, everything is over, no it can't end already, it hasn't been a week and I haven't even done anything to Annie yet. I ran towards Tristan and grabbed him by the arms, he stopped and turned to look at me.
"Um" I started, I didn't know how I could explain what I just said, oh for god sake's I don't even know what I could say to Tristan as this is the first time I have ever talked to him in my life! "What you heard back there-"
"I won't tell her." He interrupted and I looked up at him, what?
"What?" I said and he looked down at me.
"I-won't-tell-her." He repeated himself and then loosen the grip I had on his arm and continued walking. No, I don't believe him, he's just going to backstab me like everyone and tell Annie so that she could ruin my life all over again this year.
"Wait!" I called after him and grabbed him by the arm again. "What do you mean you won't tell her?"
"Exactly as I said it."
"But why? She's your girlfriend isn't she?" He sighed.
"No she isn't." He replied, wait what? Then the kiss? What? I am totally confused.
"She's not? But the kiss yesterday..." I trailed off and he looked down at me.
"Just be glad that I'm not telling her." He loosen my grip and continued walking. I stood there, watching his back as he slowly moved away from me. I don't get it, I really don't get this at all.
"Hey!" I called at him and he turned away, looking at me. "Why? Why aren't you telling her?" He shrugged.
"Because I'm just enjoying the show." He smiled, his smile made my heart skip a beat and then continued walking. What? I don't get this at all. I mean Annie's his, no wait he denied being her boyfriend then why? What is Tristan Hayes thinking about? I feel uneasy about this, why would Tristan enjoy the show when he's so close with Annie? Damn it, my plan has been exposed to Tristan, and I have no idea when he would tell Annie. It feels like I am walking on a thin layer of egg shells.
A/N: Here's the second chapter to my new story! I'm sorry if this story seems like it doesn't have enough details or seems a little rushed, but I'm working on it! I have the whole story in my head, but I'm just kind of struggling on how I could write it out, like the small little details and all that, ahh I think I might give up on this story, I don't know ; Please R/R and tell me what you think. (Of course, sorry for all the grammar issues) :(
Sky8677: haha you're supporting this story as you supported my other one! I'm glad that you're enjoying the story so far but I still don't know exactly how I am going to write it. As you know my mind is still on Kyle's POV as I posted 2 chapters out and I've done a lot of editing for Allison's POV today! Yay! Please tell me how you think about this chapter so far and where you think I could improve! Thanks!
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