Author: hopelina PM
She's a black hole, sucking the narrator in with her spirit. But she doesn't even understand.Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Romance/Drama - Words: 655 - Updated: 01-08-13 - Published: 01-06-13 - id: 3089952
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Disclaimer: "Over and Over" belongs to Three Days Grace, and "Already Over" to Red. I've altered the order of both lyrics.
My mind still plagues with her. It's been two years since we broke up, but somehow hanging out with her evoked new emotions within me, or rather, renewed emotions. Why did she have to act so much like she does when we click the most? How can she pull me back into her web, just after I swore her off?
How can my mind work like this? Her names echoes in my head, over and over again. Sometimes I want to scream at those thoughts, and other times I just let them flow. Why is that? "Over and over, I fall for you. Over and over, I try not to. Over and over, you make me fall for you, and you don't even try to. So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head... I know what's best for me, but I want you instead. I'll keep on wasting all my time." Over and Over, by Three Days Grace,suits me way too well.
It's partially because I want to get a life, because I've grown weary of locking my self in fantasy. I want to lay down with someone and cuddle, talking on and on about things that are comforting or don't matter. And for some reason, she's the one I want the most. I tell myself it's because she's the only one I've kissed, and the only one I've really become so attached to. I tell myself it's because she's my "default." But why is it that I haven't been able to truly become infatuated with anyone but her, for so long?
Countless times, I've tried to replace you. I've convinced myself that I didn't love you, but that's only by avoiding you. Why do I "fall in love" with you, every time I see you again? And yet I keep up the stubborn act, "I don't need you!" "You're just playing with my mind!" "I don't care who you're with!" "It's because you're the closest person to myself!"
I don't know if this is love,
I don't know if running in circles will get me anywhere,
I don't know how I've ever managed to stay away.
But I'm stubborn enough to push you away.
I'm too foolish to realize how much I'll regret it, until it's over,
And I have you convinced I have some sort of grudge against you.
When will this
I can't dismiss
My feelings, in the end.
No way for me to escape.
Every time I pretend,
It's over, the past repeats.
I hate you, loathe you, diss you;
I crave you, love you, miss you.
Just like a circle, it never ends,
I will never get over her, no matter when;
Hate me, ignore me,
Don't you be there for me,
And still I'll let go,
To get sucked in your black hole;
This skewed type of love,
Devours me, digests me,
Frees me and revives me,
Only to start over again.
"My best defense, running from you. I can't resist, take all you want from me. Fading, breaking slowly. I'd give it all to you, letting go of me; reaching as I fall... I know it's already over, now. Nothing left to lose, loving you again. I know it's already over, already over now... I'd give it all to you, I offer up my soul. It's already over, already over now! You're all I reach for..."
It's sort of ironic that both songs say "Over", when the circle never ends, right? Reviews are appreciated.