2nd Jan 2013

Hey Mum,

Happy New Year! How was your Christmas? Hope you had a good one. Things here were alright I guess. I just want to get back to school to get out of the house. I want this year to pass smoothly however already things are bad. It is going to be a very long 9 months.

X

11th January '13

3 years and it still hurts like it was yesterday. Usually I'm not that bad but today I don't know what happened. There's so many things that I wish I had told you, so many things I want to tell you. Most importantly I never told you how much I love you. I love you with all my heart, soul, and breath I take. All I want to do is make you proud, I'm not kidding. When I perform I wish you were there cheering me on whenever I get dressed up to go out I wish you were here to say I look pretty. I'm starting to forget you mum and I don't want to forget. I'm forgetting your smile, your laugh, the way you walk... I'm forgetting all the memories we created and I don't want to forget. All I can remember is crying and I don't want that. Why were you so much more important elsewhere? Why, Mum, why? You were too young, I was too young – my sisters were too young. I don't to sound selfish but you left me when I really needed you. Really needed you. I have managed to stop crying but I've got so much to say but I don't want to cry anymore. I'm so tired of it all...

Love you forever.

Rosina xxx