Entry 5-March 2006

Tonight was crazy! I spent most of the night on the phone with Daniel. That sentence is a shocker for two reasons. 1) I was on the phone. 2) With Daniel.

He told me how much he has been thinking about me lately, and that he felt bad for being such a jerk before the March break. He claims it was only one day, but I know better. I was torn apart. He went from, "We will always be friends!" to "Shut up, I have to go!" So, I was very annoyed.

I had also been thinking about him, and what he has said and "done" to me. I had missed it, and had come to terms with the fact that yet again I had lost him to the better part of society. Then, out of the blue he calls. I am actually allowed to answer it, (for without that the evening would have consisted of naps and Disney movies) and I talked to him all night.

It took me about half the night to repeat what he kept saying. It's hard for me, because of how much I've been through for him. I had always dreamed of things he has said to me tonight, and still when he says it I feel as if I am still asleep and simply deceiving myself.

I hated him so much last week, and I hate myself for always giving in to him. It's like it's not him talking. Like I've zoned out and am subconsciously thinking lovely thoughts in his voice. He says things that are duplicated only in teen drama shows and my dreams.

The issues still remain though. He won't talk to me if his friends are around, and he won't kiss me unless we are hidden in the 3rd floor book stalks at the city's Public Library. Also, he asks a lot of sexual questions. Like, things only perverts creeping teen chat website have ever asked me. Sometimes he really scares me.

When he tells me about how he loves me I feel everything in my stomach moving and I shake violently. I don't understand how he can still do so much to me when I have known him so long. Well, tomorrow I get to finally (finally!) go back to school.

I hope I will be ungrounded soon.

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Dr. Hughes put down the notebook he had been reading from and frowned deeply, creasing his eyebrows. He stood out and walked into a waiting room.

"Mr. Santos?" He called out.

Mr. Santos looked ragged and weary. His face was drawn and filled with dread.

"So, how is she doing today then Doctor?" he asked.

"Today she is in 2006. She wrote in her journal today as if she was 15 years old."

"What could be the draw for her, to be 15 again?" Mr. Santos wondered.

"The only trend right now is that she is under the impression she is grounded. You've seen the journals, in every way she's just a normal teenager."

"And believe me; I would be fine with that if she wasn't 21."

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Entry 1: February 18, 2006

You shall be my new journal! Actually, I don't think I will have anything interesting to say in a journal due to being grounded! Dad totally over reacted! It's not fair; everything is being taken from me. Daniel has left me for good this time, I am at a loss. I am tired of always getting in trouble and being blamed for things. This is just the topping on a horrible dessert pie.

Daniel has taken it upon himself to make me as miserable as possible, but I can't even try to fix it because I have to be home right away after school, with no phone or internet connection. Daniel told me to rebel. I chose not to, not to follow him home, not to do what he told me to for once. Yet, in making the adult choice I get crap from him AND my Dad for the rest of the week. There is no pleasing any of these people. Everyone always thinks I am lying, even though I'm one of the only people who actually tell the truth.

I watched 'The Princess Bride' today, and I got all mopey and excited with the love story as usual. As if I haven't seen it a zillion times prior. I clung to my blanket like a fool as if a drastic change would occur and Westley would die. Westley is such a wonderful person. I love him, but not as much as I love Daniel. Though I wish Daniel would say the things to me that Westley says to Buttercup.

I hope I will be ungrounded soon.

x.x.x.x

Dr. Hughes sat down at his desk again, but this time Mr. Santos was sitting across from him.

"Well, Mr. Santos…"

"Please, Larry, it's been 2 years…you can call me Ben."

"Of course, well, Ben, the good news is we are still in 2006. She seems to be going backwards however. If you recall, the last time we spoke she was living in March. Now she has gone to February. She has stated she is still grounded at this point. "

"Yes, I spoke to my wife about that. Gwyn said she remembers us grounding Annie around that time. Is it possible she is reliving that time period?"

"Yes it is a theory. She might be trying to work out something that happened at that time, or she could be creating a completely different world for herself as a coping mechanism. It's hard to say. The journals have helped. She looks forward to writing them each night." Dr. Hughes stated.

"Is there anything in the journals that actually happens during her normal day here?"

"Rarely. The one I noticed today was the film reference. Does it have any meaning to you?"

"Oh yes, The Princess Bride is her favorite movie. She watched it today?" Ben asked.

"She watches it every day."