Why

To them:
WHY do i get treated like i am that girl that you don't want to be friends with
like i am the girl that is just there
i get along with you guys but i feel no respect for me most of the time
i understand most of it is Just "jokes"
but with my history they are not jokes to me
they are real facts being covered with the word "joke"
and the words "just kidding"
WHY do i feel like an outsider when i am really in
i feel like the story i had wrote before was a jinx
a lie
a fake
Why

To him:
WHY am i invisible
why am i so unapealing
my friends say im pretty
but to me im not
im just that girl in the class that is cool to hang with
but to you
if you were seen with me
you would be ashamed
i like you since last year
but this year i truly realized it
but of course she gets all the attention
cause she is pretty
and girly
and because im just me
a tomboy and ugly
im not the girl any guy wants to be seen with
am just there
standing
alone
forever

i write my heart out on these pages like i will get a response
knowing i never will
i just sit here and type
thinking again of the fantasy life that is perfect in my head
until i am with those people
and then reality hits me
it hits me hard