Author: uniquebookworm99 PM
I've always been invisible. And it's okay. I'm used to itRated: Fiction T - English - Angst - Words: 317 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 1 - Published: 01-30-13 - Status: Complete - id: 3096949
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Being invisible has always been easy.
I could just sit there quietly and go unnoticed
People pass right by me and never know they just past another human being
I'm used to it
I have some friends that I hang out with and talk to
And, don't get me wrong
I enjoy my time with my friends
There are the times where I'm the observer
I observe the conversations going on between my friends
I sit there quietly
Either reading a book or eating something
Listening to the conversations play out in front of me
I put up a nonchalant expression
But it's an act
Underneath the mask is a girl slowly sinking into the dark shadows
She feels sad
Then she hated herself for being an attention whore and continues to do whatever she was doing earlier
However, her insecurities catch up with her and makes her feel down again
How is it that I can still put up that act?
Especially when I end up alone during group work
Everyone paired off with their friends
My friends paired up with each other
I don't mind
I like working alone
I like being in my shell, not having to interact with people
But is it healthy for a girl to want to be alone?
I ask myself this sometimes but never fully delve into it.
With all the insecurities building up, it gets to the point where I don't want to talk
Speaking becomes difficult
But I have to
Otherwise they'll start questioning
I don't want that
I'm afraid that I'll shatter into pieces if they do
I know I can't be like this forever
One day I'll need to face these insecurities head on
But for now
I'll say inside my shell
Just a bit longer.