Nightmares in the day

Trapped inside a wheel of dark thoughts

Demons of the past at every corner

Sleeping with the light on, afraid to fall asleep

I used to be so happy, so content and high-spired

With an ability to conjure up happy memories all the time

But now, that ability has turned dark

Now,

It's like having nightmares in the day

Chorus:

Why can I not stop it, this feeling inside

Caused by images of unreal and real events, all of them scary and dark

I want to stop feeling this way, I want to stop being scared

But it's like I can't slip free

Trying to make the world a better place in a small way for people I see,

Without a feeling that I can make myself feel better

It's like turtle with cracks in its shell, not daring to move out of its safe place

Every time I try to tell these dark thoughts to back off, I can "hear" someone telling me it's impossible

Because the dark thoughts will always be there, of real and unreal things

Things I conjure up, out of a lively fantasy, things I remember, from past experiences

I try to focus, but it haunts me more and more, crawling from around the corner

When I least expect it

Chorus:

Why can I not stop it, this feeling inside

Caused by images of unreal and real events, all of them scary and dark

I want to stop feeling this way, I want to stop being scared

But it's like I can't slip free

I seem to be making people laugh and smile,

I seem to be able to make things a little lighter for others

But why can't I see what's right in front of me?

I want to see green fields, but I see burnt-down bushes instead

Like the trees in the winter without its beautiful leaves,

Or the frozen of the wild sea, tamed by the harsh coldness of winter

I'm trapped in this wheel of dark and scary thoughts

Chorus:

Why can I not stop it, this feeling inside

Caused by images of unreal and real events, all of them scary and dark

I want to stop feeling this way, I want to stop being scared

But it's like I can't slip free

Someone help me, please!