Apathy

I want to break,
To be broken

I wan to fear,
To be feared

I want to kill,
And be killed

I want to scream,
And be heard

I want to fly,
And escape

I want to breathe
And calm my heartbeat

I want to find it,
And end the search

I want to hate,
And be justified

I want to lose it,
And be condemned

I want to live,
And be happy

I'm just to numb to feel.




A/N: No, I'm not some raving psychopathic weirdo, I'm just clinically depressed and have my moments. And if you see yourself in this, then for heaven's sake talk to a doctor, cause life's to short for that kind of pain.