.1.1.1 Destroying my Dreams

Humans are born, humans die. That’s the way it should be. It’s the destiny of everyone out there, everyone but me. I’m trapped, trapped in my own body. A body which is cursed to live forever. To never age, to stay young forever. Nothing can harm its beauty, no wound lasts for longer than a few seconds. Even the strongest poison cannot end this torture. This pain, I’ve taken it for too long.

How many people wish to be live forever? Too many to count. But no one truely knows about its side-effects. You stay young, that’s true. You grow more and more pretty with every single day but why should it mean something for me. I’ve no one I can impress with my beauty. I have to keep myself hidden in this castle made of cold stone. Cold as my soul. The sadness I feel since centuries, no one would wish to go through for longer than necessary. And for me it will be until the end of time.

I badly wish that I could turn back time to prevent what I did. The offer of staying young and pretty forever, it was so tempting for a girl like me. I had everything I could wish for but not endless beauty. So I took the chance, selling my dreams in process without realizing it. Now I know better. If I had taken myself time I would have known that it could only end this way.

Being happy was my dream. To marry the man I loved, to lead the life of a princess everyone adores. At first it all seemed to lead towards this path but it soon turned into a tragedy.

The day of my first death, it changed my life and showed me the truth. I died in front of my parents and my only love. And was reborn in front of their eyes. A witch. That was how they called me, terrified by what they had seen. I cannot blame them, back in those days it was the only conclusion they had. I should have been executed, being burnt for this power of mine but my parents decided otherwise. Locking me in the castle and telling everyone that I was really dead. And my love. He decided to fight in the war after the whole incident. He never returned and I was left with a broken heart.

How could I be happy, knowing that I had lost everything? I finally realized it. It was not a blessing, it was a curse. All people I loved aged and died in front of my eyes. And suddenly I stood there, holding nothing in my hands. I was alone.

An endless tragedy, that’s my life. I locked myself away from everything, all emotions and feelings should disappear. But deep inside they still exist. And torture me. The desperate search for a cure lead to nothing. I’m the only one remaining. The only Iris left in this world.

A world so cruel and cold. Humans just don’t realized how precious and short their life actually is. They are too careless about it. I would give everything to be mortal once again. To be able to join my love in heaven. But this dream will never come true.

All of my dreams, they were destroyed by a simple word of mine. A yes at the wrong time and I was destinied to live in endless pain and sadness. How I wish I could change it all.

But I have to carry on like this. Watching the world around me change without truely belonging to it. Without being a part of its happiness and problems. Without someone to talk to. Without someone to love. Until the day the time ends for them and finally for me.