Tony was a very sad young man who could not see past his pain. His entire life revolved around problems and pain, which made Tony become a typical model of depression. His depression was a never-ending stream that was always rising. Every little bad thing that happened to him forced his personal abyss of darkness to overwhelm him all the more. Tony did not believe he could escape the darkness, which lead him to embrace the darkness and pain. He enjoyed the darkness so much that he would do anything and everything to further immerse himself into his bottomless pit. To Tony, Life was a worthless sham and everyone was living the greatest lie they could.

In Tony’s life, there were only two people who he trusted absolutely and held in the highest regard, his Grandparents. His Grandfather and Grandmother had raised Tony from a little impressionable boy to a young man. They both had been teachers and tried their best to transfer all their knowledge into Tony, who readily accepted it. Tony always adored his Grandfather and the family photos showed it. In every picture, the younger Tony was clasping his Grandfathers leg or was following him around. When Tony was a young man, the respect he had for his Grandfather was evident. While Tony would not always respect other members of his family, he would do anything his Grandfather asked of him. One summer, Tony was forced to move to a different town away from his Grandparents to live with his mother, who had gotten remarried and was anxiously awaiting the arrival of her son. A few months later, Tony’s Grandfather passed away. Tony was destroyed. His Grandfather had been the only man he truly respected and admired. Now there was no one to guide Tony into manhood. Tony lost his faith and this is when darkness and depression began to overtake him.

After his Grandfathers funeral, he returned to his new city, and the darkness followed. Before his Grandfathers death, Tony had been adjusting quite well to his new city; he was doing good both academically and socially. As time went on, the darkness began to grow and it consumed everything Tony had worked to build and it threw his life into a downward spiral. Tony lost all his friends, began to fail school, and developed an immense hate towards his parents. He was stumbling around his life with no direction and no goals. Tony had nothing to live for and embraced the worthlessness of his life. The pain of worthlessness brought great depression upon him that only he could feel, and no one noticed. Everyday it ate away at his ability to cope with life and affected everything he did. It limited him to meaningless tasks and obsessions that over whelmed everything else. They became his primary tasks in life because his depression would not allow him to be good at anything else. The achievements he made in these tasks were the only things he could use to justify his embracement of the darkness. However, Tony knew that the justification would not allow himself to maintain his level of depression and that it was bound to increase. Something had to pull him out of his obsessive depression.

On another typical bleak day, someone came to Tony. The person was a girl of Tony’s age whose name was Karen. She was a rather happy girl that showed some odd interest in Tony. Karen and Tony became good talkative friends over a period of weeks, which baffled Tony. He could not understand why any girl would ever express any interest in him, since he tried his absolute hardest to remain as solitary as he possibly could. Tony knew contact with other people could lead to a possible collapse of the dark hole he embraced with so much love and admiration. He needed his darkness to comfort him. However, Tony could not find it in himself to become distanced with Karen. He tried his hardest to know her as best he could, and she tried just as hard to know more about him. Even though Tony trusted Karen with almost anything, he was not sure if he could tell her about the darkness he felt; Tony did not want to leave his darkness. The darkness absorbed all the pain of reality that was full of lies and deceit. The cloak of darkness was Tony’s shield, but Karen could remove his cloak and force him to face the reality he hated so much. However, deep down Tony hated his darkness.

Tony eventually entrusted Karen to remove him from his pit of gloom. She helped him to face all the problems in his life by simply talking to him. She was the only person that realized how depressed he was, she was also the only one to help Tony out of his depressed state. No one else cared about Tony and his problems, since they were caught up in their fake lives. Karen did not live a fake life; she just accepted things as they were and tried to work with them. She succeeded where Tony failed, and she tried to teach him how to work around problems. Their constant communication led their relationship to a different plateau and a plethora of new emotions. Karen gave Tony the aspiration he needed to escape his demon of darkness and depression.

Suddenly Tony became a different person by demonstrating his newfound goals. He stopped doing the meaningless tasks that used to control his every thought, and saw the better part of life. He rejoined the group of friends he had abandoned a few months earlier and raised his grades by a large multitude. Tony overcame his depression and destroyed his fate of sinking into the darkness. He owed it all to Karen for her refusal to let Tony slip into the abyss; he loved her for it. However, Tony was still blind to many things, which included love. While he was willing to express an endless amount of gratitude and love for Karen, she was not eager to express the same feelings about Tony. Karen saved Tony, and then crushed him.

Tony again started the search for some comfort, but he found none with other people. He eventually found his old friends, pain and darkness, whom readily accepted and forgave him. Tony was once again back at home with his comfort that was all controlling. Tony could see no good in other people. They only betrayed and ignored him at endless lengths. Though, even with the pain obscuring his thoughts, Tony could still remember how happy being free felt. He could remember that some people were good and truthful at heart. The distant thoughts gave him hope of once again being happy. Tony tried to search for freedom again, but it was helpless. Tony realized he was slipping deeper into depression at a faster rate everyday. It was becoming a spiral dive he could not control by any means. The pain was too much for Tony. He wanted a way out; he wanted death.

Tony sat on the floor with all he needed to accomplish his goal of death. He had his stepfather’s gun and a large amount of painkillers to ensure his fate. He sat for hours pondering death and if it was really the best answer. Tony could not come up with a clear answer, nor did he want one. The only conclusion that Tony came to was that his pain was constant and inescapable, and he wanted it to end. Still, Tony debated in his head, life or death? He opened the bottle of pills; he started to take them one at a time. With each succeeding pill, he took them faster and enjoyed the feeling of death seeping into his bloodstream. When the entire bottle was emptied, he reached for the revolver and carefully loaded one shiny bullet that was to end all his pain and suffering. He clicked the cylinder back into place and examined the shiny point of the golden bullet that was soon to enter his cranium. He wanted it to end the pain. Tony heard and felt nothing. The pain was gone. Tony died... Love is suicide.