“Pay Me No Mind”

Do not listen to me.

I am not worth making my thoughts known.

I am not worth expressing anything that I hold inside myself.

I am not worth anything.

Do not mind me.

I will sit in my corner, chained and caged, held back.

I stopped trying to escape a long time ago.

So-- have no worries, for I will not ask for much.

I am invisible.

You cannot see me. Just walk by, and I will not feel your disgust.

What an ugly creature I must be, for you to hate me so much.

It makes me feel better to pretend that I do not exist to you.

Don’t hurt me.

I am weak. You hold your words as weapons more stealthily than I.

So be gentle. I break so easily…

And you still don’t know how I bleed for you.

I love you.

I would break the world for you. Watch it crack down the middle. And die.

For you.

For you.

And I would be happy.

So that no one else will know the hurt

The pain

The heartbreak

Or numbness

That you have shown me.

But I can’t

I wish it would all stop. Because I sometimes wonder if God

Or whoever it is

Gets his kicks from torturing me.

Well? What do you think? This poem came from somewhat of a depressed outburst. See, the thing is, my favorite crush is being an asshole to me, but he’s not saying anything directly to me! So I can’t prove it! In other words, I’m torturing myself. But if you were me, you would blame him, too.

-QueSeraSera

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