Lost My Ignorance

(Part One)

Shards revolving

A thousand thousand

Glittering splinters

Together they make you

The image shattered. Quick

And dead before my eyes

The fading so slow I lost count

But I thought about you

I worried about you

I heard what she said

And I feared for you

Yet here I sat

And now you’re shattered

Frayed fabric of my dream

I’ll clichè for you

You’re the only one I’d do it for

Precious jewel, so polished

To a sheen

I close my eyes against.

When I open them

You are gone.

Did it get too much?

Did you lose that trust?

Did you not remember

That I waited for you?

Like a foolish dreamer

Hopelessly ensnared

In a fishnet of dream

What a waste of last moments

But how could I have known?

I never even saw your face

The anguish in those eyes

I wrap myself in the hollow truth

Hoping it will shelter me

From driving eyes and accusing whispers

I hear your child’s voice

Saying very adult things

And I cut myself

Again and again

Internal bleeding will let us meet again

Eternal bleeding from the wrists

And heart

I can’t go on without the ignorance

I used to wallow in