Starlight, Starbright

First star I see tonight

I wish I may, I wish I might

Have the wish I wish tonight

I wish to be perfect

I wish to be thin

I wish I didn't have

This hatred within

I wish I were strong again

With the will to starve

But I am to preoccupied

With decorating my body

Adorning it with self-inflicted scars

I wish to have my secrets back

To hide within myself again

I wish to cry myself to sleep

And make this pain go away

I wish to be alone

So that I can cut and starve

But then I would wish for friends

To dry my tears and pick me up

I wish...

Oh I wish

But I wish in vain

My wishes

Must come to an end

If I want them

I must make them happen

I'll need discipline

Need to get rid of this conscience

Thats what I need to do

Instead of sitting here

Wasting time

Dreaming and wishing away