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YOU MAKE ME BECAUSE YOUR NOT AN NOT FAKE. YOU HAVE PROBLEMS, YOU GET UPSET,YOU YEARN TO BE BE LOVED AND CARED BE FREE AND SEEM TO NEVER HAVE ANY PROBLEMS; AND THE ONES THEY HAVE, THEY KEEP AFRAID TO SHOW THERE TRUE WHAT I THINK IS SO WONDERFUL ABOUT FREE FROM YOUR CONSCIENCE.I LIKE TO HEAR HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL ODD FOR HAVING PROBLEMS.
FOR EXAMPLE IF I TALK ABOUT DEATH,
THEY'LL THINK I'M GOING TO KILL MYSELF.
DEATH IS A NATURAL PART OF LIFE.
I HATE IT, BUT IT HAPPENS,YOU CAN'T CHANGE IT.
WHEN I SAY THOSE THINGS IT DOESN'T MEAN I WANT TO DIE, IT JUST MEANS I UNDERSTAND DEATH.
I THINK YOU UNDERSTAND THAT,BUT THEY DON'T.
SO FROM NOW ON I'M WRITING ABOUT HAPPY THINGS LIKE FLOWERS,
BOYFRIENDS,
CRUSHES,
GOSSIP,
AND ALL THAT GOOD HERE GOES.
I NEVER GOT A FLOWER FROM MY CRUSH,THAT I WISHED WAS MY BOYFRIEND;BECAUSE HE WAS AFTER THE GOSSIP QUEEN.
SO IS THAT HAPPY ENOUGH FOR THERE perfect THAT DOESN'T MAKE ME HAPPY ANYMORE,
OH WELL.
WHATEVER MAKES THEM THINK I'M normal.
HOW DO YOU DEFINE NORMAL.
IS IT DRESSING IN DESIGNER CLOTHS,
NEVER HAVING AN ORIGINAL THOUGHT,
NEVER EXCEPTING DIFFERENCE,
GOSSIPING ABOUT OTHERS,
USING PEOPLE,
THE LIST GOES ON AND WEARY HEAD DOESN'T LIKE TO THINK ABOUT THOSE THATS WHAT YOU THINK IS normal THEN I DON'T WANT TO BE ANY PART OF THAT.
I'D RATHER BE STUCK IN MY perfect EXCTASY OF PAIN.
MAYBE I DON'T LIVE IN PAIN,MAYBE IT'S ALL A DELUSION.
MAYBE IT'S JUST A PAINTED UP LIE,
MAYBE IT'S JUST ME.