I don't know why I feel this way,

it's impossible to explain,

why I keep it bottled up,

all of the frustration and the pain.

I have so many friends,

who really like me for me,

yet when I look at myself sometimes,

I just cant make myself see.

That I really am a good person,

I just cant understand,

for inside I see all of my bad points,

things other people just can't stand.

I say to myself I'm fat,

and ugly and annoying and insane,

I feel like I have no life,

when I'm really just in pain.

I think if no one calls me,

or emails me that day,

then they hate me all the time,

and have nothing to say.

That they find me an annoying acquaintance,

who is always just around,

that they never want to talk to me,

and wish I were in the ground.

But really I know in my heart,

that none of this is true,

for the next day I'm asked to go to the mall,

and get 5 emails too.

But if you ever felt his way,

then you would understand,

that sometimes we just hate ourselves,

though none of it is planned.

So today I know I’m a good person,

though tomorrow I may disagree,

but right now I know that others love me,

and I know that I love me.