When Forever Ends

I miss him. I know that most people would say that I would have to try to move on, but I can't seem to. I remember coming home to find him trying to cook dinner but just letting it burn up instead and then we would go out to eat. His name was Justin and he was the sweetest person in the world. He wasn't very bright, he would put the milk in the cupboard and the cookis in the fridge. He once said that cookies were good cold.

We were far from the perfect couple. Sometimes we would fight and they would usually end with one of us storming out of the small apartment that we shared. Most of our fights were just verbal arguments but sometimes we would get physical. Some of the things that I said to him I now regret saying. He was just as bad. Then, it happened.

After a really heated fight he stormed out of our apartment and headed toward the park. We always went to the park after a fight and we would make up after we spent time talking on a bench. Only this time he never made it to the park. He was here and then he wasn't. That was almost a year ago. It happened in January. It is now December.

Snow is now falling down and Christmas is approaching. I don't know what to do. I wish that he was here. I know that he would want me to try to move on, but it is so hard. I think that I'm going to take a walk. Maybe that will calm me down some.

I walk outside and head towards the park. The same park that we used to meet at. The same one where we first met. The snow is falling very fast now. It is getting colder, too. I finally reach the park and find a bench to sit down on. I sit and think. I think about how only the day before it happened he told me that he loved me and that we would be together forever. I guess forever has ended, I never thought it could.

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The anniversary of Justin's death was a sad one. Anyone who visited the grave site saw not one but two. The funny thing is that they say that love will go on after death, only sometimes the both of them need to be on the same side of the spiritual world.

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