every time I see a smile I feel it’s death’s dark sickly skull sneering out at me and a sputtering candle glows but hardly dispels the dark gloom that hovers over me a constant reminder to brood I want my cloud to eclipse the sun my hunger is not for decadence I want to scream at all the happy people can’t you see there’s pain everywhere grinning grimly I bite into a sweet, full apple its full of worms I swallow it whole