I Know I Ought To...

I know I ought to paint smiles on the faces I see. I know I ought to live each day to the best of my ability. I find myself drifting lazily among the stars when I should be working on so much more. Thinking about him was never hard, he was only a breath away. I'd give anything to be with him again, just sharing my day. I know I ought to get back up, teach myself how to live, but the waves are silent in the background, the sunrise turns to shades of gray.

The horizon twinkles with frozen stars, as the world just fades away. The beach, the sand, the daylight will never be my friend. The waves recede, rain dries up, leaving stardust on the sand. Dreams drift away on white caps, strewn with seaweed, overrun with litter.

I know I ought to get up each day and try to forget his smile. I know I ought to leave the memories locked deep inside. But I won't, I don't, I cant forget the touch of salty lips as he kissed me, held me tight. I can't forget the way he laughed, the way his eyes danced on the waves.