Oh yes, this is quite confusing. But I had to write it, I didn't have a
choice. Something forced me to. It's all written around the title, with no
planning at all. It just kind of wrote itself. Oh well, have fun....
Fate Decides Now
The deadly scream caught in Natasha's throat.
This wasn't right. None of it was. You weren't supposed to hurt a person
like this. Love wasn't ment to bind all these emotions together. Just the
very word, love, sends a person head first into something so wonderful that
it pushes past the limit and ends up right back at the bottom. Spiraling
down into all hell.
That's the way it always is though, isn't it? There's always a love/hate
relationship to everything. How ironic. You can even love love.
But you can also hate it just as easily. It just summarizes so many
emotions. Rage, love, hate, joy, ecstasy, fear, contentment, happiness,
shock, laughter, amusment, insanity, warmth, embarassment, suprise, anger,
sadness, greif, desire, lust, want, need, compassion, jealousy,
possesivness, belonging, bliss, desperation, coldness, confusion.....So why
do so many people waste so much time looking for it. It's an impossible
feeling that can never be captured.
Because if and when you do find it, fate decides to join in the game.
Her small fragile body shook in terror and grief, a quivering hand pressed
over her mouth in shock. She felt the crystaline tears flowing
unconrollably from her pale lavander eyes. The eyes that had once sparkled
from complete and constant ecstasy. The eyes that would now stay hollow and
cold. She ran forward, her feet unable to stay steady on the unstable
gravel. The small stones dug mercilessly into her legs and knees as she
dropped to the ground, rolling the limp and bloody body onto it's back. She
didn't even notice the pain that was being inflicted on her as her own
blood stained the coarse rocks crimson.
"Dais..." It sounded as if the name were made of shattered glass by the way
it ripped and tore though her thoat.
This is what love gives you. Misery. Death. Insanity.
Natasha's sobs were like convulsions as she held onto the lifeless body of
the only man she's ever felt anything for. She'd never felt. But he gave
her the strongest emotion of them all. Love.
If only it were as simple as that. But nothing ever is. Because with that
word she took on a burden, the burden of the truth. Love is never a fairy
tale story. Love is only the definition for life.
The body of the young man was held securly in her arms as she shifted back
and forth, their blood mixing in the small pools that were landmarks on
their scarlet trail.
Her hand was tangled up in his dark hair, matted down from the blood that
flowed in abundance from the large gashes in his head. The same gashes that
covered the rest of the corpse she held so protectivly in her arms.
"I'd give anything...I'd suffer through any amount of torture...My
life...My happiness..." The words from Natasha's mouth were near silent as
they tore themselves out of her raw throat, "I'm nothing without
you...Dias...You were my lifeforce...You were my blood...Without you..."
Dais' limp corpse dropped helplessly from Natasha's grasp. Moments later
she herself colapsed.
The silence of death said the words that she could never finish.
"Without you...I can't exist..."
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