I say this word a lot wherever I go.
Beware reader. This is angsty if you
read it in the right mood.

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I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for everything in my life.
From the day I was born till a day like today.
At an early stage I could see my life
turn out this way - sad, lonely...the list goes on.

I'm sorry for being brought up as a
different person.
That's just the way I am.
I can be ashamed of myself sometimes.

Everyone wants me to be like them.
They don't appreciate my individuality.
They want me to drink a lot like they do.
They want me to drive cars.
They want me to go to parties.
But I say HELL NO.

I want to be different. I'm sorry if you
don't like that.
I just want to be me.
If there is a me that exists.
People don't like me because I'm different
They don't wish to hear me say sorry to them.

My family are disappointed in me.
Mum. Dad. Brother.
What can I say to them? But sorry.
I'm sorry for being born as this quiet, lonely person.

They can't understand how it feels to be different.
All I can say is sorry...for not being a better
person. Sorry is the only word I can express.
It is what lies beneath me.

I can't fit in because of my difference.
Well nobody understands because
All they care about is me fitting in and
having a future by their rules.
But I have no future, do I?

Then again, I may have no life at all.
I'm sorry. This is all I can say.
I'm sorry. I'M SORRY!!!!!!!!!
I'm sorry for ruining things...or even
everything. This is all I can say.

END.