AN: I’m sorry! THIS ISN"T FUNNY…sniff sniff

This is still my brain talking

There is nothing more difficult to understand than yourself. Who then made a system where we had to try and figure out someone else as well? No, I am not going to delve into love for I could rant about that for ages without stop (and I have never been in it so who am I to say).

I wish to address something of a bit different in nature. How can one be disciplined while still conforming to rules, regulations, and authorities?

In the past few weeks I have been reading through transcendentalism (Emerson and all them) from where I stood, I thought that they had a valid idea. They stress having your own mind, your own opinions and standing up for what you believed it. There is nothing worse than one that crumbles under the weight of persecution. The hypocrites persecute, the weak crumble, and we end up with more hypocrites than we started out with. If you have a belief a strong one, stand up for it! No matter what. The only problem is what if to carry out your beliefs you need to break laws and discipline. You go alone down that path. If you choose that, go down it, but be willing to face where it leads you.

From here I wish to address the case of religion [if I offend anyone, I apologize. These are only my opinions that have no baring on what is or what might me]. I have been to every Christian church under the sun: Lutheran, Baptist, Methodist, Unitarian, Protestant, Catholic, and to many others to mention. Each one professes "This is how it is!"

What a stupid thing to say! How can any one person say they have figured out and understood the one real mystery of the world: Is there a God? It would be like a child with a foreign script over his desk and then professing that he knew all that it said when he only knew what one word in the middle meant. In my opinion, there is no doubt that there is a God in one form or another isn’t that what truly matters. Men pollute the truths with demons and devils and hell and pain. Is that not what excites a man’s interest? It is his fear that drives him to believe. If a massive man points a gun at you and yells, "My name is Nancy!"; you will more readily believe him than if he simply says to you "My name is Nancy."

What is the construct of a church? Nothing but four walls, a preacher, and a group of people "being lead as sheep." Ironic that it is supposedly both a good and bad thing at the same time. I’ve had a scruple over my church ever since it told me that I was weak as a woman, less favored in God’s eyes. What are they doing but turning themselves into Pharisees? I refuse to believe that because I have vagina that I can not be as Christian as the next or as Buddhist or anything! We were all made! Was the lion made to rule over the leopard? Does the frog rule over the toad? Even further in nature does the woman live in fear and reverence under the male? Not in nature. Don’t be fooled by the rut. How then can man step out and look over nature and woman to declare. "I RULE!" This is just as trivial as a child that calls the front seat in a car. The other one was just too slow in calling it. I refuse to base my beliefs on allegories and fantasies. Can anyone provide the truth? No, only together, studying the uniform strengths can we find truths.