Feel held back

Not myself

Unable to let go, to be reckless or irresponsible even once

Can't relax, can't rest

Why do I appear so different?

Rules?

Or is it my fault that no one talks to me?

Am I different?

Why do I feel alone?

Finally, a way to feel,

A link to the world

So close I can touch it

But I don't, I can't

I'm not allowed

I can't do anything

Because I'm perfect.

Why do you hold me back?

Why can't I be myself?

I'm smothered

I'm cut off

I'm weak

I have no opinions;

They are yours,

And they contradict what I believe

I form an opinion, make a decision

But it's 'wrong'.

I'm wrong

You encourage me to be myself

But hurt me when I am

Why won't you let me?

Why can't I make a mistake?

People think I'm perfect.

And I struggle to keep from thinking the same.

I am hurt

I am conformed

I am closed in

I am alone

I am what you want me to be

I don't want to be perfect anymore.