I never see it coming

Not a dark cloud above my head

It always attacks me in my back

Dragging me in a slow and painful death

There is no escape

It just gets me again and again

It swallows me whole

And brings me slowly to my end

Leaving me with nothing of myself

I can´t do anything that I do when I´m alive

Consistently stealing away my energy

Time after time

I wish that it would end

Right here and right now

But writing is all I can do

Writing is all I know how

Substantially

These words

Are what keeps me

alive