June 24, 2003

That ice skating day

It was snowing hard again

Grateful that it was

So just us. Silence. Thoughts ran.

Only thirty minutes,

I wished it had been longer,

But the scene is so clear

As if it occurred sooner

Could I have felt worse?

More put down? More broken in soul?

Maybe so, but tears,

You’re lucky I can control.

I’ve nothing to say

If jobs are more important

You admit you’ve placed

The family much more distant

It must be possible!

What about a job right here?

But no, the economy

Joblessness is your great fear.

I understood that well

But mommy later informed me

You’re overqualified

Just can’t risk a low salary.

Bits of bitterness,

Piling work, even on her side

Hinders agreement

On where you should best reside

I see your concern

I know it’s hard to let go

But there’s so much more

A higher gain – you must know

With no division

A household is full of peace, more-

There is happiness.

Is that not something to strive for?

Summer is not enough

Remember the inborn rule

Be there when I struggle

The daily trials in school.

Father of honor,

Strength, wisdom, listen please

Loved, needed, wanted.

Stand greater than mountains, trees.

O that you would recall

I’ve always looked up to you,

But it’s weird telling friends

The times I see you are few.

Can’t worry about men.

How can I find my own spouse?

If there’s no harmony,

No trust in the present house?

Back to that car ride

We didn’t speak much, did we?

The truth – we need you

Believe it. Did you hear me?

There must be a way. Hope.

I trust in God. Christ in me.

I live. I’ve come this far.

Unity, someday you’ll see.

hey… should I even show this to my dad?!?