Too much

I love you too much

this I know.

Yet I know as well,

as sure of as the moon

and stars,

that I shall never stop.

This fire I cannot extinguish

whether by my own hands,

or another’s.

Yet you torment my heart so,

and sometimes I wish

I could let go.

But I realize that I

Do not truly mean it.

For if you went,

so would my hope

for a love true.

I’m sick of fighting

And this battle I cannot win.

Yet strangely, I do not mind.

In you I found,

my every desire and wish.

You stand for my freedom,

for happiness, adventure

and everything that I

yearn for.

I cannot help but wonder,

when shall I find you

amid these dark woods.

In my dreams,

you are with me.

But when I wake,

all I’m left with is wisps of smoke.

I clutch them desperately

yet these vanish as well.

And I’m left

all alone.

This is why I hate you

And this is why I love you

all the same.