i can't sleep. i just dont think that i'm very good at sleeping or staying asleep, for that matter. it might be the finality of getting under my blankets that i don't like-for when the point of exhaustion gently explains that i must be awake in 3 hours, i cant help but to think, 'this is all that i have accomplished today?' and so here i am, at 3am, writing about 'who i am.'
i do believe that i shall begin this difficult post with my latest endeavor: i can't remember if it all fell upon me in a moment or whether it was a slow encroachment of epiphany. i also can't remember if it has been months or days since my perception of life was altered. i do know, although, that i am unable to walk away from this revelation. this revelation, explained most simply, as doing good acts; being a good person. never before have i felt so full of purpose as i do today or as i will tomorrow. i see opportunity in all places from this amended viewpoint. the world can never look as it did and i am different. my eyes have begun to present knowledge and existence from beautiful, peculiar angles; and in succession, my thoughts are privileged with ability to paint all reality in colors. i'm not sure to what or to whom i should be attributing this new disposition of altruism but i would like to believe it traveled to earth with the snow and will melt into the trees in april, to likewise change their colors.12/10/2008 #1
yo !!! what i think that you're quite imaginative which is a good thing if i tell ya about myself you're probably gonna laugh your head off my message to ya ALWAYS BE HAPPY w7/16/2012 #2
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