| Heather Goldbug |
Author has written 159 stories for General, General, Song, Life, Family, Friendship, School, and Love. In July 2012, I am a significantly less prolific writer than I was in years past. I like to think the quality of my poetry has improved over time, but who am I to judge? I am now an upper-twenty-something woman who has been married for a little over a year. I have struggled with many things during my life. Probably most notably, at least for the purposes of this site, an eating disorder - for 6 years. However, I have been recovered from that for 6 years (it truly is possible). The eating disorder was called ED-NOS. You can google it if you like. Over the years I have accumulated a huge mass of poetry. I wrote most of it in my teen years, and I feel those poems are mostly full of angst and the good lines are few and far between - but they are there. I'm still a pretty introspective person, but I don't just write everything that I ever think and call it a poem. I'm also a lot busier, because I have responsibilities. But still, usually when something is bothering me, or I can't stop thinking about it, I feel that old urge and am drawn again to the art of poetry. And, sometimes over several minutes, sometimes over hours, the words eventually find their way out until I am satisfied that I have expressed what needed to be expressed, and I move on until it happens again. At this time (July 2012) I am uploading several poems that I have written over a few years. That's all you get, because that's pretty much all there is. :D | |||||||
1. To the Addict, Love, Addiction reviewsIt's my poem version interpretation of the dance "Addiction" Performed by Kayle and Kupono on So You Think You Can Dance. That is, it's a poem from the point of view of "the addiction," to the addict.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-26-12 - Complete2. Wife of an Addict reviewsWhat it feels like to be the wife of an addict.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 112 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-26-12 - Complete3. The Warm and Wet reviewsIt's essentially about why I like warm baths. Honestly.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 139 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 7-26-12 - Complete4. A Night of LoveA highly suggestive poem about relations between husband and wifePoetry: Love - Rated: M - English - Romance/Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 99 - Published: 7-26-12 - Complete5. NewlywedSome of my thoughts on being a newlywed written three months into my marriage .Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry/Family - Chapters: 1 - Words: 247 - Published: 7-26-12 - Complete6. Anorexia Revisited but not by meExamining a series of events that could happen to an anorexicPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 260 - Published: 7-26-12 - Complete7. The PianistOn loving a pianist.Poetry: Love - Rated: K - English - Poetry/Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 92 - Published: 7-26-12 - Complete8. Snippets » reviewsSnippets of poetry not really long enough or complete enough to be called poemsPoetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 3 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 7 - Updated: 10-17-05 - Published: 10-5-059. Amortentia vs Veritaserum reviewsLove and truth do not mix so very wellPoetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 61 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 10-14-0510. The Hopeful Hopeless reviewsSERIOUSLY, warning. Graphic and disturbing. Read at your own risk. Seriously.Poetry: Life - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-5-0511. This is my Boggart reviewsMy greatest fearPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-5-0512. Incoherence From a Closed Mouth reviews'Nother ana poemPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 147 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-5-0513. Reality DictionaryDefining and separating the real from the idealPoetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 69 - Published: 10-5-0514. a different valentine's poem reviewsbasically yes, autobiographical... poem regarding love, hurt...Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 82 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-5-0515. Breathing and Nothing MoreLack of strength, source of strengthPoetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Published: 10-5-0516. Talking in a Cemetary Without Much ReverenceWhen people die, it's the people they left behind that hurt the most. (non-autobiographical, though stems from my life)Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 87 - Published: 10-5-0517. Jacqueline's Rose reviewsA love story between two people I made upPoetry: Love - Rated: K+ - English - Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 265 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 10-5-0518. The LegendaryMy poems aren't the same as the famous onesPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 93 - Published: 10-5-0519. John Sweet Series » reviewsThese are probably my best poems, but you may have to email/IM me for explanations if you don't read John Sweet.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 5 - Words: 309 - Reviews: 5 - Updated: 10-4-05 - Published: 3-30-0420. A Small Lovesometimes i find myself wondering if it will ever completely go awayPoetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 31 - Published: 10-4-0521. blurred edges allow for imagination reviewsprobably my first good ana poem.Poetry: Life - Rated: T - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 10-4-0522. The Things We CreateJessica Farber is an artist. She can paint well, but there is some element of feeling missing in her paintings. This story is of her struggle to remember how to put feeling into her paintings.Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,620 - Published: 5-5-0423. When Elmer's Doesn't WorkMark wants his parents to divorce. His girlfriend, Ally, and he are having some issues with their relationship. Sometimes big changes don't change as much of our lives as we thought. That comes from the little changes inside us.Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,444 - Published: 5-5-0424. Reflection reviewsFirst she sees what she should, then she sees what she shouldn't, then she sees nothing at all.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 26 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-30-0425. Hospital reviewsA very distraught hospital patientPoetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-30-0426. His Name Forgotten » reviewsLeah is six. This is the tragedy of her life with an abusive father, who also abuses her mom.Fiction: General - Rated: M - English - Tragedy/Drama - Chapters: 3 - Words: 3,322 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 3-15-04 - Published: 8-21-0327. Senior Summer reviewsI'm fairly ashamed of htis sing-songy poem, but oh well. It's not even what really happened, but I was just thinking how the summer after your senior year of high school can be pretty sucky...Poetry: School - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 240 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 9-13-0328. Trampeled reviewsIt's somehting like a rap. It's about my sister, who'd run away many times, breaking my heart over and over. And so this is me wishing she'd just stay away, and not come home...Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 102 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9-13-0329. My Friends reviewsI know people who have suffered a great deal. This world is cruel... I could name every person that this story briefly describes, but I'm not going to for the sake of their privacy... isn't it sad that these terrible things happen to mere children?Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 9-13-0330. Quiero Vivir reviewsHablo solo un poquito español! Asistí solo dos semestrés de español. Lo siento... In English... I can't speak Spanish, the grammar here is terrible, But I wrote this about my best friend, to whom I was looking quite forward to meeting in the summer. IPoetry: Friendship - Rated: K - Spanish - Chapters: 1 - Words: 56 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9-13-0331. Every Day reviewsDefinitely not my best. But not bad, either. Some parts are good. It's just about... I don't know, how we view the world, I guess.Poetry: Life - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 197 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 8-8-0332. Color Wheel reviewsA short poem describing the indscribable, painting the tiny differences and yet similarities between two best friends. (Me and mine)Poetry: Friendship - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 39 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7-6-0333. Missed Goodbye reviewsThis is a poem that highlights my adopted sister's life from when I met her when she was a kid... to when I wrote it. It has some interesting phrases that catch the eye and invade the mind.Poetry: Family - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 196 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7-6-0334. Dulling Memory reviewsIt's kind of the opposite of "Metamorphosis" (my poem). I felt like my happy self just... vanished... and where did it go?Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 193 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 7-6-0335. A Silent Fear reviewsInsecurities about my poems... what if the power of my words starts fading as soon as my fingers pelt the worn keys on my keyboard?Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6-15-0336. It's Not A Vice reviewsI didn't know whether to go back to something that's a bit addictive or to stay away from it... bet you'll relate...Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 128 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 6-14-0337. It's Only Success on the First Try reviewsThis is about how etched "it's only success on the first try" is into my life - I feel like it's been there forever, and .. this is a WEIRD poem.Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 141 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-23-0338. Subtle Death reviewsIt's short... I'm still contemplating the exact meaning of this but I know it has somehting to do with being annoyed that people ignore me constantly... when they aren't 1-on-1 with me.Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 68 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-13-0339. Beautiful Night reviewsThough it may give you false perceptions of reading a light poem, this is about death. They felt like children to me. And they weren't, really, but I hurt. My baby birds.Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst/Tragedy - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-8-0340. Absence of FastForwardDon't you wish you could fast-forward through the painful times?Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 60 - Published: 3-5-0341. Stained Hope reviewsA poem loaded with imagery, about daily pressures... ugh, I can't write poetry summaries. This was created with magnet poetry. VERY short.Poetry: Life - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 22 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 3-3-0342. Valentinic Ice reviewsKnow what it's like to be single on Valentine's day when all your friends are.. just... not?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 29 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2-16-0343. Imagined Abandonment reviewsNature... is my best friend... but did it leave me too?Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 149 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 2-16-0344. Fade to Transparent reviewsJust read over something that brought to memory something I thought was lost forever, and I guess I'd have like to keep it that way...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 84 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-27-0345. 50,000 Words reviewsA poem to comemmorate my 50,000 words on FFN, most of which is poetry.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1-19-0346. With A Purpose reviewsYou can't give up when you have a purpose. Takes place in my dance studio.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 1-19-0347. A Tribute To Crayons: an insanely long acronym reviewsThea requested a poem with insane requirements - it had to rhyme, be about crayons, and say "Thea is the brightest crayon in the box"... I met the challenge!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 276 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 12-20-0248. Picking Up the Broken Pieces reviewsAfter months of blank nothing, I finally wrote a poem. The tankas and coriander things were for school, they don't count. About the possibility of rekindling an old friendship.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 107 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-18-0249. Three Tankas reviews1-Thanksgiving. 2-Nature. 3-Humor, writing. That's basically what these three tankas are about. A tanka is a haiku with two extra lines oof seven syllables, so very short. :)Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 70 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 11-18-0250. Cake Vs Soup reviewsA Short Couplet about blessings and trials, in relation to Coriander - which I consider to be a spice of many uses. Sweet and lemony at the same time.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 78 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9-13-0251. Coriander Gift reviewsHeroic couplet - doubt many of you know what that is - a spice, Heaven, love.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 9-12-0252. Physical Depletion reviewsI am sick. I am so weak. True story - well, true poem.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 170 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 9-12-0253. Nobody There reviewsKind of like if you pick up a ringing phone and you get a dialtone. Or you go to use the phone and it's dead. Phone's not in here, but just for additional imagery to those who read summaries :)Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 90 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9-9-0254. Shattered Hope reviewsYou start to be convinced that the world is good and there is hope. Then it turns around and breaks you.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 56 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 8-19-0255. Chasing the Sunset reviewsI got this idea while on a plane - what if you flew at the same speed as the sun at it stayed the same time for as long as you did it?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7-26-0256. Desperate For Escape reviewsI'm hurting us bothl how do I stop myself? I can't! I'm desperate for escape...PG cause I don't think kids would understand or like it or whateverPoetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 206 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 7-26-0257. Spoken Without Words reviewsHow do you express love with mere words?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 74 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 7-26-0258. Ponderings of a Daughter reviewsWondering what happened between me and my father..Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 183 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7-26-0259. Downtrodden Dandelions reviewsWho's to say what's a weed and what's not? Lately I've been so into symbolic poetry - just cause the title's innocent doesn't make it less meaningful than any other poem, you just have to find itPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 95 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 6-1-0260. Gratitude To An Innocent reviewsThis poem probably has more applications than what it's actually about... all the same, we live in an unappreciative society and we should be grateful for many things that we take for granted...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5-29-0261. Unjust Punishment reviewsPlease, first realize *what* inanimate object this is... then you can decide otherwise. *grin*Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 127 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5-28-0262. Ashley » reviewsItalics work! This is a story about Ashley's camp experience so far. Anorexia, more problems... an expression of feelings common among eating disordered girls is present throughout, so people can relate.Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 2 - Words: 3,740 - Reviews: 12 - Updated: 5-28-02 - Published: 4-10-0263. Slow Death » reviewsThis dramatic poem about anorexia has had some DRASTIC changes made to it! And a chapter added :)Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 145 - Reviews: 8 - Updated: 5-26-02 - Published: 5-3-0264. Metamorphosis reviewsIt's like the change from a caterpillar to a butterfly, or something. I feel as though I've grown wings.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 38 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5-25-0265. Little Nibbles reviewsA disease of mind and body takes over my mind. Mostly, I am always all right physically, but anorexia messes with my head... the more complete story of my nearly two-year struggle.Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,656 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 5-20-0266. This Isn't Me reviewsWho am I? A soul-searching poem, I guess. I am so sad today. This is my third poem [today]. I'm lonely - I miss someone.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 172 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5-19-0267. Silence reviewsIt's six lines long, how hard can it be to read?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 33 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5-19-0268. Never reviewsYou never forget the things that you try to turn away from.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5-19-0269. Wild reviewsI don't know how to summarize this! I guess I just kind of wish I were wild, when I'm so mannerly and polite... mostly, anyway..Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 97 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 5-9-0270. Blind reviewsThe whole world is blind... I know only one other person that sees... you may not get it but I don't care. I'm just writing. You're reading.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 162 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5-2-0271. Distracted reviews"The more engrossed with the pencil I seem,/the less I hear from the physical world/that surrounds me"Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 171 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 4-30-0272. Neglected reviewsThis one's about a best friend's "neglect". Explains a term called water-faucet friendship... interested? R/R! (Imma geek)Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 223 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4-30-0273. Emphasized reviews::announces that she is displeased:: I said UNDERLINE, you stupid FFN! UNDERLINE! Comprende?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 117 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4-30-0274. Fat reviewsI can't believe I'm so fat. I can't live knowing it. Why does everyone say I'm skinny? They're all lying.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 157 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 4-19-0275. April Vacation reviewsToo hot for April. What to do, what to do...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 155 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4-17-0276. Vulnerable reviewsFinally, something from my own life. I feel so terribly vulnerable!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 4-14-0277. Abuse » reviews2 chapters, from 2 POVs, on relationship abuse. From the abuser and the abusee. PG for the subject.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 4-14-0278. Angry reviewsA poem from the life of someone who's anger is out of controlPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 109 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4-10-0279. Pain reviewsThe poem is based on the definition of the word...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 166 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4-10-0280. Broken Forever reviewsSome relationships can't be rescued.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 79 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4-10-0281. Everything's Changed reviewsMemories. Looking back at them, things have really changed.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 121 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 4-8-0282. Misery reviewsI wish someone could teach me how to capture the angst and horror or whatever feelings and put them into a summary without spoiling the poem.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 101 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 4-2-0283. I Hate Myself reviewsI don't like me... in fact I hate me... help?Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 13 - Published: 3-24-0284. Nature Escape reviewsSophie Weber is a wonderful nine-year old. Her father is a monster. Please R/R...I need con crit to improve my story writing (I think I'm good at poetry by now :-P) if I ever want to publish. And I do.Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,641 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 3-21-0285. Perfect reviewsAbout Ashley, a character I'm writing a story about...she's anorexic and yadda. I create characters to make them suffer. I guess it's a way to vent.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3-19-0286. Hot Dog With Mustard reviewsNow that I've got your attention... :-P The poem is REALLY about me/the wind... but doesn't that make for a boring title? It's SO short, so it won't kill you to R/R. At least you can go "You're the title queen" or "You have issues"...right?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-14-0287. Black reviewsEverything I see is black.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 99 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3-10-0288. Secret Scars reviewsI really didn't know what to title it. It's basically... big time angst.Poetry: General - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 3-9-0289. You Care reviewsAbout Emily, but if you read it maybe you'll be reminded of *your* best friend, eh?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 206 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-3-0290. Unidentified Flying Feelings reviewsPardon my joke of a title. It isn't really supposed to be humor.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 138 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 3-3-0291. Moon, Rain, Wind, Sun reviews"The moon, so secluded, so far from the Earth/I feel just as distant. I feel just as lonely."Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 195 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 3-3-0292. Loathing reviewsAbout my jerk (for lack of a more severe word) of a father. Gosh, he makes me want to swear. But I won't. I never have, and he isn't worth enough to make me mess that up.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 220 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 2-28-0293. Jealous of Myself reviewsEver been jealous of yourself? Read this either to find out how it feels, or just for sympathy, or just to read, or for any reason. Common, you can't say this isn't originaly among all these love shmuck poems and a few suicide/cutting/ana (oh yes, I've wrPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 200 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 2-16-0294. Ana - Danger Line reviewsAnorexia is taking over my lil corner of FFN. Oh boy. What is this, like my 10th poem involving anorexia?Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 111 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 2-11-0295. Ana - Hunger reviewsPoem about the feeling known as "hunger". Knowing all my ana poems, you gotta know what this is about.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 94 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 2-10-0296. Blame It All On Ana reviewsIt sounds good. It's about ana messing up my life. Read it, it isn't that long.Poetry: Song - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 175 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1-26-0297. A Prayer I Never Uttered reviewsIt's kind of a song, really, but it doesn't have much of a tune, but anyway...uh, it has pretty awesome wording. I like it :) Just check it out, and please review it if you read it...even just "I like it" is better than nothing!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 263 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1-21-0298. Psycho? reviewsAbout my first counseling appointmet (which was today). Whaddaya think?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 352 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 1-17-0299. Delusion reviews"How much pain they have cost us, the evils which have never happened." - Thomas JeffersonPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 112 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 1-12-02100. In reviewsWe all want to fit in, but is there an in?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 83 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 1-12-02101. A Christmas Story reviewsA bit like a diary entry. It's about Christmas 2001 for me. It's not that long, so go ahead and r/r.Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,251 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-25-01102. Destruction (I Can't Feel Anything) reviewsI started typing and never stopped till the last bit. I was just typing any word that came to mind. It's pretty good considering that! Oh, it's good anyway, who am I kidding? :-PPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 135 - Reviews: 2 - Published: 12-22-01103. Nameless, Faceless People (of my dreams) reviewsIt's an interesting thought, and it's just that. A thought. It's me, thinking about something.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 182 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 12-21-01104. Wishlist (for Christmas) reviewsAll I want for Christmas...not really the material things that you'd think any teenager would want...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 169 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 12-21-01105. Anorexia: Just a Phase reviewsI think I like this poem. It feels expressive and less story-ish than my other ana poems. As for the rating...no bad words, as usual, but the subject is just not really a G subject...Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 113 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 11-8-01106. Anorexia: Plea for Help reviewsJust another one o' them ana poems I write...I think I wrote this yesterday, I don't know...but it was this week!Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 63 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 11-8-01107. Death Season reviewsIt's real short and real cute/cool so READ IT! And review. Thanks. Love ya!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 35 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 9-29-01108. Definition reviewsA poem about poems...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 119 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 9-28-01109. Anorexia: It Took a Year reviewsMy other two things about anorexia were written last year...more than a year ago, actually. This is the *new* *updated* *improved* (lol) story. Actually it's a poem. Whatever. Just review it and smile...:)Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 189 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 9-17-01110. A Girl's Guide to Life reviewsI wrote this guide to life for girls as a message on a message board, but I found it too precious to delete, so I saved it and here it is...make use of it! :)Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,051 - Reviews: 16 - Published: 9-8-01111. Negative View reviewsUh...just me in a really depressed mood, being very negative, and writing my feelings.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 143 - Reviews: 1 - Published: 8-26-01112. Insufficient reviewsFeeling like I'm not enough...we've all felt it...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 38 - Reviews: 3 - Published: 8-26-01113. Questioning Life reviewsI was so confused. I didn't know what I believed in. I was just questioning everything. I don't know how much sense it will make to you...of COURSE it makes sense to me. Read and tell me how bad or good it is.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8-26-01114. Tears of Sympathy reviewsAbout tears...read it...review it...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 129 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 6-18-01115. Teenager reviewsIt seems weird to me. I don't know where half of it came from. I guess it's secretly how I feel in that place that even I don't know how to unlock...except by writing poetry.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 323 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 6-9-01116. Nature reviewsThe poem has shape to it, it looks very cool. Worth the read just to see the uniqueness of it. 'Twas hard to make. And don't forget to review.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 56 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 5-29-01117. Shower reviewsSounds dumb. Probably isn't as dumb as it sounds. Don't know, weird mood. Too many feelings to interpret. Please read. Then please review.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 221 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 5-26-01118. I Prayed For a Friend reviewsA very nice poem about friendship. Specifically about one of mine, but works for many wonderful friends. Might wanna print it out for your best friend :)Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 124 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 5-22-01119. When I... reviewsAnother poem about friendship, it goes along with the other poem I wrote yesterday (published today), I Prayed For a FriendPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 164 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 5-22-01120. Father and Daughter reviewsOkay, like, when did I write this, and why did I not post it until now? Hmm...weird. It's like song-ish. My father doesn't know my birthday. For anyone who wants to know what it's like to have a dad in la-la land, read. Or if you just wanna be nice. Or syPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 257 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 4-28-01121. Nothing Works Out Perfectly reviewsAbout me and a guy friend. Please read, you'll see.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 173 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 4-28-01122. Letting Go - A true story about best friends reviewsThis is a songfic, but there's no category for Phantom of the Opera, plus it's a lot of original stuff, and I didnt know where to put it. It's sad, I think. At the end, don't know, I kinda feel that way right now. This is basically 5 1/2 years of thoughtFiction: General - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,342 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 4-27-01123. What Is Me? reviewsTrying to define "me".Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 120 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 3-25-01124. I Never Knew reviewsI think it should be PG just because of the subject.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 156 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 1-30-01125. Dramatic Thoughts reviewsI don't know how I wrote this, I just opened an e-mail and started writing, and I kept writing. It sounds like a poem. It looks like a story. Doctor Pants thinks it's good. He also thinks I'm a depressed woman. All right, go ahead and read the story.Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 533 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 1-5-01126. Ashes reviewsIt's very interesting. Read it a few times, it will make more sense that way.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 90 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 12-16-00127. Hidden Pains reviewsMost of my friends don't know about these things. I don't bring them up a lot.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 136 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 12-14-00128. Break Dancing reviewsI dunno!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 131 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 12-10-00129. It Makes Me Mad reviewsI dunno, it's obvious from the title, I thinkPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 114 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 12-6-00130. I'm Alone reviewsA few thoughts, it was going to be a song, but I changed it to poetry.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 115 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 12-6-00131. I Thought That I Was Special reviewsI wrote this when I was feeling down because of how many people out there can write. Please, please, review if you read anything I write?Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 105 - Reviews: 14 - Published: 12-1-00132. I Want To Be reviewsIt's really short, but I love it!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 8 - Published: 11-6-00133. Happy Child, Free and Wild reviewsI don't know what to say. This obviously is notabout *me* right now. I wrote it at my descision to shaddup and stop blabbing my whole life to everyone. When I decided to stop trusting people. That wasn't lng ago and who knows if I will keep that thinkingPoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 52 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 10-30-00134. Think Before You Speak reviewsDedicated to a friend, who's going through a lot. If only his friends would think before they spoke.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 103 - Reviews: 10 - Published: 10-8-00135. Lullaby reviewsUm...just a lullaby I wrote...Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 63 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9-28-00136. I lack... reviewsStuff I lack. Stuff I wish I had. I also lack musical talents, but I didn't put that on there.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 85 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 9-28-00137. Heaples of Love reviewsKind of a prayer...hard to explain, just read, and review please!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 247 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 9-25-00138. Us Mormons reviewsHow it is being a Mormon in Massachusetts...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 96 - Reviews: 58 - Published: 9-4-00139. I ain't gonna smell no more reviewsI know it sucks! It's my first song. Not an original tune but hey...Poetry: Song - Rated: K - English - Humor - Chapters: 1 - Words: 230 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 9-2-00140. Ambition reviewsImagine if I had this much ambition...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 67 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8-25-00141. Starvation reviewsWhen I wrote it about 2 hours ago I thought it was too short to post but I think it's good enough to make up for it's length. I had no idea what to call it. Is it drama? I don't know...I don't know anything...by the way, I did eventually eat...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 26 - Reviews: 9 - Published: 8-7-00142. Make Me reviewsNot what you think...asking a friend to make everything better. Dedicated to Carolyn.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 115 - Reviews: 4 - Published: 8-6-00143. Anorexia: My story reviewsIs this PG? I don't know. I don't know how to describe this, except that the title explains it.Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,110 - Reviews: 11 - Published: 8-4-00144. A Fairy, a Unicorn, and a Dragon reviewsMade this while angry...to calm myself down, at the instruction of my friend. Whether it is bad or good, I do not know (you'll have to tell me in your review) but I do know that it worked. I am quite a bit calmer.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 180 - Reviews: 24 - Published: 7-24-00145. King and Star reviewsA limerick first, then a poem...a kind of story poem. The limerick is about a horse named King, the poem is how King meets a mare named Star. I think they suck but some people don't it really depends on the person. Tell me your honest opinion I don't carePoetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 201 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7-24-00146. Self-Depreciation reviewsI wrote this while crying, being depressed, and thinking I sucked. Which was 10 minutes ago so I feel very similarly now. My friend Jaclyn thought of the title. PG for...well, it's not very cheery.Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 213 - Reviews: 18 - Published: 7-23-00147. A walk with Medille, part I reviewsIs this a short story? I do not know. Hehehe...I don't think it's a novel though, and I doubt it will be. Um...hope you like it, and, Medille is a deer.Fiction: General - Rated: K - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,089 - Reviews: 5 - Published: 7-22-00148. Lovedust reviewsUm...it's kinda cute, I guess. I made it up at night, sorry! Please review it, please, please...PLEASE! I'm begging you...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 98 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 7-18-00149. Changing the World reviewsLife is cruel...people are cruel...go give someone a hug, now!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 187 - Reviews: 15 - Published: 7-10-00150. Footprints of Life reviewsMove on...leave that footprint to wash away...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 126 - Reviews: 6 - Published: 7-10-00151. Remember Me reviewsJust a bunch of questions...rambling from the mind of...ME! It's about being remembered...duh.Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 133 - Reviews: 12 - Published: 7-9-00152. Work reviewsI thought this up at work, and wrote it when I got home. It's not the best, but it's pretty good. Please R/R!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 165 - Reviews: 7 - Published: 7-6-00153. All Alone reviewsBasically how I used to feel, I don't feel this way so much anymore. As you can see probably by reading it, it is about the beginning of the year/end of last year that it takes place. Please R/R, it makes me so happy!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 151 - Reviews: 20 - Published: 7-5-00154. Online Addict reviewsIt's all about me. I'm such an addict! Is anyone else this bad? Anyway, I'd love your reviews!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 225 - Reviews: 18 - Published: 7-4-00155. Anorexia reviewsMy thoughts about anorexia...starting at about a week ago, and ending a few days ago. Just please read/reveiw!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 239 - Reviews: 38 - Published: 7-4-00156. Beautiful reviewsA web site encouraged me to write a poem about my definition of beaty, so I did, and here it is. Enjoy and please review, reviews make my day!Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 51 - Reviews: 17 - Published: 7-1-00157. To my ex best friend reviewsParts of our (our meaning me and my ex best friend) story, I don't know if it's good or if it even makes sense. It makes sense to me, but then again, it really happened to me...Poetry: General - Rated: K - English - Poetry - Chapters: 1 - Words: 207 - Reviews: 19 - Published: 6-25-00158. A Dying Wish reviewsPG for death...this is depressing. I don't think it's that good but my friends do, please reveiw! I want to know what you think!Fiction: General - Rated: K+ - English - Drama - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,005 - Reviews: 33 - Published: 6-21-00159. If I die today reviewsIf I die today, this would be my message to the world...Poetry: General - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 149 - Reviews: 25 - Published: 5-24-00