Shadows paint the sidewalks,
A living picture in a frame,
See the sea of people,
All their faces look the same,

So I sat down for awhile,
Forcing a smile,
In a state of self-denial,
Is it worthwhile,
Sell my pity for a dime,
Yeah just one dime,
Sell my pity for a dime,
Yeah, just one dime,

Plain talk can be the easy way,
Signs of losing my faith,
Losing my faith,
Plain talk can be the easy way,
Signs of losing my faith,
Losing my faith,

So I sat down for awhile,
Yeah, forcing a smile,
In a state of self-denial,
Yeah, is it worthwhile,
Sell my pity for a dime,
Yeah, just one dime,
Sell my pity for a dime,
Yeah, just one dime (2x)
(Creed- Pity For A Dime)

Hi, I'm 14 (I'm now 18 :P)years old. Um, let's see whatI cantell you. I guess I'll give you a list of my fav things or whateva.

Favorite actresses: EDIT: Zoey Deschanel (I hope I spelled that right)

Favorite Actors: Johnny Depp

Favorite female singers: Amy Lee, Avril Lavigne *shrugs*

Favorite male singers: JT (LOL!)

Favorite Bands: Korn, Hoobastank, Jimmy Eat World, Blink 182, Boxcar Racers, Creed, Nirvana (always and 4eva!), Linkin Park, Puddle Of Mud, Incubus, Dave Matthews Band, Sum41, Goo Goo Dolls, Staind, The Calling, Vertical Horizon, Chevelle, Guns N' Roses, 3 Doors Down, Our Lady Peace, Broken Social Scene, Jack's Smirking Revenge, Snow Patrol, Fightstar, 30 Seconds to Mars, My Chemical Romance, The Used, Evanescence, Aphex Twin, VNV Nation, Wumpscut, Kitty, Frou Frou, The Birthday Massacre, Angels and Airwaves, ...*brain freeze* I'll add more later.

My band is currently called Coach Bob and the Suicide Chain (inside joke). I am lead singer (yay go me!).

Hobbies: Downloading music, art, poetry, fanfiction

Favorite Things to do: Listen to music, hang out with my friends (occasionally), be alone.

I don't want you to give it all up,
And leave your own life collecting dust,
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me,
You never gave us a chance to be,
And I don't need you, to be by my side,
To tell me that everythings alright,
I just wanted you to tell me the truth,
You know I'd do that for you,

Why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

Cause I did enough to show you that I,
Was willing to give and sacrifice,
And I was the one who was lifting you up,
When you thought your life had had enough,
And when I get close, you turn away,
There's nothing that I can do or say,
So now I need you to tell me the truth,
You know I'd do that for you,

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?

Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that I can do,
To make you change your mind,
Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that, I can do,
Is it a waste of time?
Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that I can do,
To make you change your mind,

So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
...What is it I've got to say...
So why are you running away,
...To make you admit you're afraid...
Why are you running away?
(Hoobastank- Running Away)

EDIT: Wanna know more about me? Visit my myspace (www.myspace.com/xxTheSilentCrierxx) or my vampirefreaks (www.vampirefreaks.com/u/Madame_Lorelei) Warning: I'm pretty random.:)

P.S. CRaZy-OdIN and SquallLeonheart(I miss you) rock! haha!

Hey, don't write yourself off yet,
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on,
Just try your best, try everything you can,
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away,

It just takes some time,
Little girl you're in the middle it'll up the ride,
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
Everything (everything) will be alright, (alright)

Hey, you know they're all the same,
You know you're doing better on your own,
So don't buy in,
Live right now,
Yeah, just be yourself,
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else,

It just takes some time,
Little girl you're in the middle of the ride,
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
Everything (everything) will be alright (alright), (2x)

Hey don't write yourself off yet,
It's only in your head you feel left out,
Or looked down on,
Just do your best,
Do everything you can,
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts are gonna say,

It just takes some time,
Little girl you're in the middle of the ride,
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
Everything (everything) will be alright (alright), (2x)
(Jimmy Eat World- In The Middle)

Random Quote- "Don't fire until you can see the whites of their eyes." -??

Chorus:
Broadway is dark tonight,
A little bit weaker than you used to be,
Broadway is dark tonight,
See the young man sitting in the old mans bar,
Waiting for his turn to die,

The cowboy kills the rockstar,
And Friday night's gone too far,
The dim light hides the years,
On all the faded girls,

Forgotten but not gone,
You drink it off your mind,
You talk about the world,
Like it's someplace that you've been,

You see you'd love to run home,
But you know you ain't got one,
Cause you're living in a world,
Where you're best forgotten round here,

Chorus:
Broadway is dark tonight,
A little bit weaker than you used to be,
Broadway is dark tonight,
See the young man sitting in the old mans bar,
Waiting for his turn to die

You choke down all your anger,
Forget your only son,
You pray to statues when you sober up for fun,
Your anger don't impress me,
The world slapped in your face,
It always rains like hell on the losers day parade,

You see you'd love to run home,
But you know you ain't got one,
Cause you're living in a world,
That you're best forgotten,
And when you're thinking you're a joke,
And nobody's gonna listen,
To the one small point,
I know they been missing round here

Chorus:
Broadway is dark tonight,
A little bit weaker than you used to be,
Broadway is dark tonight,
See the young man sitting in the old mans bar,
Waiting for his turn to die

You see you'd love to run home,
But you know you ain't got one,
Cause you're living in a world,
That you're best forgotten,
And when you're thinking you're a joke,
And nobody's gonna listen,
To the one small point,
I know they been missing round here, round here,

Chorus:
Broadway is dark tonight,
A little bit weaker than you used to be,
Broadway is dark tonight,
See the young man sitting in the old mans bar,
Waiting for his turn to die......
(Goo Goo Dolls-Broadway)

Cool moto: "Every minute spent being sad is sixty seconds of wasted happiness." -??

My motto: "Be yourself... No one else can do it for you."

Aim screenname: mindsRbreakable6 (I'm rarely on)

IMVU screenname: Rylee

Saying: "What is happiness, but a state-of-mind? What is love, but a trick of the heart? And what is life, but God's never-ending Soap Opera?" -Said by me! (...Wow, I was so young... and slightly pathetic.)

Did I mention I'm strangely attracted to goth/punk guys and vampires.......? (just when u thought I couldn't get weirder......) ((I still am!!! lol))

I've gone to find myself. If I get back before I do, please let me know where I went so that I can go check if I'm okay. Thanx!

Blue Peanut is awesome! Read this persons work, please! It's great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm just me...... I'm not a prep, I'm not a punk, I'm not a geek, I'm not gothic (although I like/wear the fashion, and I adore/mingle in goth culture), I'm not a rebel (I'm rethinking this one), I'm not a social butterfly, I'm not a wannabe, I'm not a poser..... I'm me. You can try to catergorize my music and me if you want to, but that doesn't mean that's who I am. I'm just a girl doing whatever the f* ck she wants to.... and having a helluva lot of fun doing it!!!!! Sorry, just had to say that.

mindfuk27@yahoo.com

phoenix_ashes1@yahoo.com

E-mail me!

I crawled out from the pain of yesterday,
I crawled to you and I said all the things that you said to say,
Have I said enough?

Do you like it?
yeah e yeah,
Do you like it?
yeah yeah

I know how you're playing these dirty games,
They're killing me,
I know how you love to watch me beg,
Well here I am,

Do you like it?
yeah e yeah
Do you like it?
yeah yeah
Do you like it?
yeah e yeah, yeah e yeah, yeah yeah

Chorus:
I don't want to be a puppet for you,
Don't want to bite the hand that's feeding,
I don't want to be a sucker for you, oh yes you
I hate myself for begging,
I hate myself for staying,
I hate myself for listening to you,

It's too little, too late, well I can't escape,
So I'm begging you please,
I changed all the things that you told me to change,
Now I'm on my kness,

Do you like it?
yeah e yeah
Do you like it?
yeah yeah
Do you like it?
yeah e yeah, yeah e yeah, yeah yeah

Chorus

I just want to get out,
Stuck inside of this,
Waiting for something else,
Waiting to exist,
Can you offer me help?
Help for what I've missed
I missed, I....

Do you like it?
yeah e yeah
Do you like it?
yeah yeah
Do you like it?
yeah e yeah, yeah e yeah, yeah yeah

Chorus

For listening to you......
(Our Lady Peace- Do You Like It)

Funny Conversation about guys:

Cecilia: Ugh, I hate Kyle! He's going through one of those stages again!

Me: What stages?

Cecilia: You know how guys have their mocho stages, I'll do anything to get screwed stages, romantic stages- which are very rare, lemme tell you, and the stages where they think with their head.

Me: Which head?

Cecilia: The one they use most often. You know, the one in their pants.

Kiera: I thought guys only had one stage; the one where they think with THAT head.

Chris: No, we don't. Guys are just complex.

Kiera: Guys are hell.

Cecilia: Guys are the reason we have PMS!

Me: Amen to that.

Chris: Girls are cruel.

Kiera: We're supposed to be cruel. Men are pricks, women are bitches. That's the way it is.

Chris: Some girls are nice. So are some guys.

Cecilia: Yea, those are the trannys. They have their own categories!

Chris: Keisha is nice.

Me: What the fuck are you trynna say?

Chris: Are you a tranny?

Me: No. I'm a bitch to you sometimes.

Chris: Nuh uh, tranny.

Me: Don't expect nemore pleasure from me.

Chris: I love you.

Me: A ha! Chris you're living proof guys only have one stage!!!!!!

::I high five Cecilia and Kiera::

Chris: I hate you all. You're all mean.

Cecilia: ::pats Chris's back:: Well, Chris, look on the bright side. At least we're not trannys.

Rage in the cage,
And piss upon the stage,
There's only one sure way,
To bring the giant down,
Defunct the strings,
Of cemetary things,
With one flat foot,
On the devil's wing,

Crawl on me,
Sink into me,
Die for me,
Living dead girl

Crawl on me,
Sink into me,
Die for me,
Living Dead girl

Raping the geek,
And hustling the freak,
Like a hunchback juice,
On a sentimental noose,
Operation filfth,
They love to love the wealth,
Of a SS Whore,
Making scary sounds,

Crawl on me,
Sink into me,
Die for me,
Living dead girl

Crawl on me,
Sink into me,
Die for me,
Living dead girl

Psyclone Jack,
Hallucinating Hack,
Thinks Donna Reed,
Eats dollar bills,
Goldfoot machine,
Creates another fiend,
So beautiful,
They make you kill,

Crawl on me,
Sink into me,
Die for me,
Living dead girl,

Crawl on me,
Sink into me,
Die for me,
Living dead girl

Blood on her skin,
Dripping with sin,
Do it again,
Living dead girl,

Blood on her skin,
Dripping with sin,
Do it again,
Living dead girl.
(Rob Zombie- Living Dead Girl)

I am a natural born loser. Please take this into consideration the next time I randomly scream "Sodomy" and throw fruit out of my window. Thank you. (LOL)

If fears what makes us decide,
Our future journey,
Well I'm not along for the ride, (I'm not along for the ride)
Cuz I'm still yearning,
To try and touch the sun, (to try and touch the sun)
My fingers burning,
Before you're old you are young,
Yeah, I'm still learning

Chorus:
I am falling down,
Try and stop me,
It feels so good to hit the ground,
You can watch me,
Fallin on my face,
It's an uphill human race,
And I am fallin down

I'm standing out in the street, (I'm standing out in the street)
The earth is moving,
I feel it under my feet, (I feel it under my feet)
And I'm still proving,
That I can stand my ground,
And my feet are there, haven't washed my hair,
To be lost before you are found,
It don't mean you are losing

Chorus

Some day I'll live in a house,
etc, etc, etc,
Don't you know that's not for now,
And for now I'm falling,
down... down... down...
down... down... down...
down... down... down... (I am falling down)
Yeah e yeah e yeah e yeah oh

Chorus

I am falling down
(I'm falling down, I'm falling, I'm falling, falling, I'm falling)
It feels so good to hit the ground
(I'm falling, I'm falling down)
I am falling... (falling down) I'm falling.
(Avril Lavigne- Falling Down Sweet Home Alabama Soundtrack)

I've been happy lately 4 some reason. ((although this doesn't stay happy for long... lol)) I dunno, life doesn't suck as much as it used to. Or at least, 4 now it doesn't. To some people I'm crazy, to some I'm cool, to most I'm a very depressing person who needs help and happy pills. I'm not some one you can depend on (most of the time), I'm not the type of person who likes to hear that you had a good day. I'd prefer your day would be worst than mines. I believe in God and witchcraft (if that's possible) and right now my mom is getting on my fucking nerves. I don't believe in hell.... how could there possibly be a place worse than life? But I do believe Satan is the voice in the back of our heads that tells us to do homicide's and suicides and all that fun stuff. Sorry 4 sounding morbid or something but I'm really pissed off right now. And I needed a place to bitch. Have a nice fucking day.

"What if this earth is another planet's hell?"- I 4got who said that, but I agree with this person.

*goes away for a bit*

I AM INVINCIBLE!!!!!!!!! ::gets hit by a parked car:: Ow... nevermind...

My bum is on the rail,
My bum is on the rail,
Look at me, my bum is on the rail,
My bum is on the man,
Bum is on the man,
It's a lot of fun to put your bum on a man,
My bum is on the step,
Bum is on the step,
Don't fall down the steps you might hurt your bum!!!
::insane laughter::

And that's not very fun,
When you fall down and hurt your bum,
I like to put my bum on things,
It's fun for everyone,

My bum is on the cheese,
Bum is on the cheese,
If I get lucky,
I'll get a disease,

My bum is on the Swedish,
Swedish,
Swedish,
Swedish,

My bum is on the gum,
Bum is on the gum,
I can blow a bubble with my bum, bum, bum,

My bum is on the ship,
The battleship,
I hope they don't shoot a cannon at my bum,
And shoot poo all over the place,
Poo poo!

Cuz that isn't very fun,
When they shoot a cannon in your bum,
I like to put my bum on things,
It's fun for everyone,

My bum is on the dog,
My bum is on the cat,
My bum is on the phone,
My bum is all alone....

The rail is all alone,
The man is all alone,
The swedish is all alone,
My bum is all alone,

1, 2, 3, 4,

My bum is all alone 12x

Get the poo off my bum! (get the poo off)
I need the poo off my bum,
I gotta get the poo off my bum, (poo poo)

I wanna hear the cannon,
No, let me hear the cannon,
No, no, no, no, not the loon,

Bum is alone 4x

I wanna hear the cannon,
I wanna hear the cannon, not the loon,

Yeah, the cannon,
Now get the poo off my bum,
I want the poo off my bum bum,

Can I hear the loon again?
(Tom Green- The Bum Bum Song)

I just had some Coca Cola.... ::laughs insanely:: I wonder what I'll do next...

::Funny Barney/Elmo skit::

Barney: I love you...
You love me...
We're a happy-

::Gun shot sounds::

Elmo: Shut the **** up!

::More gun shot sounds::
(Sesame Street After Dark)

I'm so happy,
Cuz today I've found my friends,
They're in my head,
I'm so ugly,
That's okay cuz so are you,
We've broken our mirrors,
Sunday morning,
Is everyday for all I care,
And I'm not scared,
Light my candles,
In a daze cuz I found God,

Yeah, yeah, yeah 6x
Yeah!

I'm so lonely,
That's okay I shaved my head,
And I'm not sad,
And just maybe,
I'm to blame for all I've heard,
But I'm not sure,
I'm so excited,
I can't wait to meet you there,
And I don't care,
I'm so horny,
That's okay,
My will is good,

Yeah, yeah, yeah 6x
Yeah!

I like it... I'm not gonna crack,
I miss you... I'm not gonna crack,
I love you... I'm not gonna crack,
I kill you... I'm not gonna crack,
I like it... I'm not gonna crack,
I miss you... I'm not gonna crack,
I love you... I'm not gonna crack,
I kill you... I'm not gonna crack,

I'm so happy,
Cuz today I found my friends,
They're in my head,
I'm so ugly,
But that's okay cuz so are you,
We've broken our mirrors,
Sunday morning,
Is everday for all I care,
And I'm not scared,
Light my candles,
In a daze cuz I found God,

Yeah, yeah, yeah 6x
Yeah!

I like it... I'm not gonna crack,
I miss you... I'm not gonna crack,
I love you... I'm not gonna crack,
I kill you... I'm not gonna crack,
I like it... I'm not gonna crack,
I miss you... I'm not gonna crack,
I love you... I'm not gonna crack,
I kill you... I'm not gonna crack.
(Nirvana-Lithium)

Believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see.

Ooh, it's da big scary bear!!!- Dr. Doolittle 2

HAND DOWN LITTLE STEEVE! - Get Over It

That is all for now. The great Keisha must leave. But I'll close this with wise words. In the great words of Tom Green: "Glen likes his sisters boobies, Glen likes his sisters boobies, Glen likes his sisters boobies, Alot, alot, alot, she's hot, alot....."

P.S. Did you see the MTV Movie Awards? Those t.A.T.u. girls are HOTT!!!!!!! Oh, am I supposed to say that????

I'm BACK!!!!!!!!! lolz

Most recent concerts... Warped Tour and My Chemical Romance.

I'm so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childhood fears,
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave,
Cause your presence still lingers here,
And it won't leave me alone,

Chorus:
These wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just too real,
There's just too much that time cannot erase,
When you cried I'd wipe away all your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all your fears,
I held your hand through all these years,
But you still have...
All of me.

You used to captivate me by your resonating mind,
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind,
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams,
Your voice has chased away all the sanity in me,

Chorus

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone all along,
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,
I held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have...
All of me.
(Evanescence- My Immortal)

La de da de da......

Wow, it's been ages since I've updated this. I've changed so much since the age of 14 (last time this was updated). My, I was immature back then!

Also my taste in music has changed a bit. More dark, slightly more emo, but the pain and screaming is still there. As always.

BTW, the (( )) indicates the recent changes.

Wow, I just went back and reread all of this. Needless to say I had to make some changes. It's so funny how much a person can change in just a few years. Back then, I was out to impress everyone. Now, I could care less. I'm not a mean person, but there's no point in sucking up to people you don't even know. But anyhoo, thanks to all who have read AND REVIEWED my work. (lol) More is coming soon. I've been through so many changes, so expect some changes in my writing style and what not. The angst is still there. When do I not write angst? If you're a fanfiction geek (like me), check out my stuff on ff.net (mindless360) and on adultff.net (Raisden_Captivity). It's pretty much the same stuff on each. Oh, and to check aff.net you must be 18 or older. Sorry. :( You can cheat like I did, though. I'm sure they really don't care. :P

Hmm... now what should I do for song lyrics? Ah, I got it.

How many years since you found yourself
Staring at an endless sky?

Unaware of yourself
Who you are and where you're going
Only living
Only breathing
Losing all sense of time

The most fragile of things
Captivates and embraces you
Surrender and be witness
To this rarest of moments

You live within the sense of the order of things
What is truth
What is important
What defines you

No need to fear
No need to worry
About years that passed
About time you lost

Live seconds as a lifetime
Time it does not matter
You live within the sense
Of the stillness of time.

VNV Nation- Endless Skies