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07/17/04
reconstructing
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hello, if you read this, first of all, let me say go visit the favourite writers section, the people there are all AMAZING writers in a varied range of styles
at least one (most likely all) are going to be able to satisfy your needs in one way or another
then, go flip through my faves section, sharing of love results in more love, i suppose
(it's my subtle way of getting you all to worship Tori Amos)
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Note: www.geocities.com/axicajay/chester.html
is the current host of the Chester Memorial page
go there
sign the guestbook (which currently doesnt exist)
bring flowers
honour Chester
and the joy he brought to all our hearts
update: i know have a mirror pen name under axica Morningstar where I keep my stories, they are long and tedious
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quote: I went through a period of time when I wondered 'AM I GAY? AM I STRAIGHT?'
and then I realized that I was just slutty.
-Margaret Cho
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age i find can throw people off, they hear a number and it makes them shudder, and they say that OCD drives people to madness, but no, seriously, i'd like to think ignorance is a bigger problem, so i'm into the whole machete solution, but then we have violence control and school policies and that WHOLE funding problem and i'm gonna get a lot of frowns if i cause a bit of trouble
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bio-central:
my slew of problems SHOULD fit under there, but there isn't much point
that, and certain people come on here, take a look, shake their heads, and yell at me later on
im real chicken when it comes to direct confrontation
the nerves between my brain and my tongue just short-circuit, really unfortunate, so let's see, i did this for french class, it should work:
If You're Curious:
I like tapestries, not the actual item because I don’t know what it is, but I like how the word sounds. I first heard it in “Ever After” the movie starring Drew Barrymore. From there on it was a common descriptive in many classic novels that I’ve read-the Bronte sisters are real big on them.
I’m big on interior decorating. During the summer, I was really bored, so I would watch the Home and Gardening Channel every day. Some of my friends think I’m colour blind, that or art is just not my thing. The truth is that I agree, but HGTV is very educational. It helped me decorate my room, and it didn’t turn out half bad even though my dad did do the painting. It came out striped so he had to go over it with another colour to make it seem like it was supposed to be that way. Most of my friends weren’t fooled, but they didn’t say anything.
The room is painted red, a lot of tapestries are red, but that’s not why I picked the colour. Red is angry, it makes me feel secluded, and like every other teenager, my room is where I go when I get upset and feel a strong need to lash out. Besides, I look good in red. When I get sad, I eat chocolate, the same when I’m bloated or bored. Sometimes when I see a chocolate commercial on T.V. I make my dad take me out to buy some or else I throw a tantrum.
I also love Disney movies. I watch them with my sister, and I use her as an excuse to make my dad buy them for me.
I love my sister, and that is really the most important thing about me because it makes me feel like a good person. When I watch movies with her, she runs out screaming because she thinks “Finding Nemo” and “Lilo and Stitch” are scary. “The Lion King” never bothered her though even though that was the one with the father being killed off. That made me sad.
When I feel cruel or inhuman I remind myself that I love my sister, and that when she wakes up crying at night I go and comfort her because I can’t conjure up tears (my whole human emotion condition system is unfortunately, a little bit faulty). Crying is important, my sister knows it. When she grows up, I’ll teach her about tapestries.
fav artists:
-music-
tori amos (my goddess, i especially love her To Venus and Back era)
garbage
fiona apple (saving grace)
rhcp
nin
ani difranco
ben folds
tegan and sara
joni mitchell
indigo girls
REM
nirvana
regina spektor
bright eyes
and just for kicks:
hole & marilyn manson, but ONLY early works, aka fingerpaintings and such
-authors-
neil gaiman (anything by him really, but you should all get into the Sandman, it'll change your world)
patricia nell warren (The Front Runner will kill your heart)
emily bronte (we all know Wutherin Heights, I'm a sucker for that book)
charlotte bronte
anne bronte
jack kerouac (on the road to be specific)
mary renault (it's my guilty pleasure, reading about beautiful boys who love beautiful boys and just HAPPEN to be beaten at times as well)
-poets-
beau sia
emily dickinson
allen ginsberg
sage francis
-anime-
gundam wing
yami no matusei
gravitation
grave of the fireflies (movie)
ai no kusabi
zetsuai 1989/bronze
kizuna
fake
ayashi no ceres
-manga-(basically anything YAOI)
angel sanctuary
boys next door
bird in a cage
love mode (yes, the ENTIRE series)
then there's other ones as well, but they've all been made into OVA's and such, and you know, having visual aid is ONE thing, but having oral as well, then you know, happy happy day
-television- (yes, yes, I'm a t.v geek)
six feet under
sex and the city
buffy and angel
judging amy
kink
queer as folk
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"you can use my skin
to bury secrets in
and I will settle you down"
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